Heading Back Home
Added 2015-01-27 21:59:06 +0000 UTCKnock on wood, looks like the trip back will be a bit easier than last year's trip back from Magfest! Mainly because at least this time I'm actually on the train! Last year around this time, it involved getting on a bus to go to Pittsburg and THEN hop a train, and, well, you pretty much know the whole story. This year's convention was pretty great. Honestly, it started out weird, but ended on a pretty perfect high note. We've all lost people in our lives, and many of us have lost people tragically in our lives. It's something that everyone goes through, and I don't begrudge anyone for how they deal with things. For me, I deal with loss however I feel like dealing with it in the moment. Sometimes I keep things to myself, sometimes I gotta drink, and sometimes I gotta talk it out. Losing someone very close and a pretty horrific way, and then one year later going somewhere where there's many people dressed like that person...it's a weird feeling. It's a feeling I can't even describe, and it's one of the strangest things in my life. Believe me, I'm not knocking anyone for dressing up like my buddy, especially on this weekend, but, I certainly needed some drinks on Friday night. Obviously I'm talking about Justin, and on Friday, some of us couldn't really bring ourselves to see the movie, at least right then and there. We're definitely going to see it later. I opted to have drinks with Jason and talk about some old times, it was pretty awesome. Magfest is the time of year I get to see many of my best friends including two of my closest brothers Phelan and Matthew Buck who I only get to see a couple times a year, so it's instantly one of my favorite weekends, and I don't even go down to the dealer's room that much, I just love hanging out. But I did stock up on some new hot sauces from Pepper Palace. And yeah, The Source is one of them. Fuck, I did spend a lot of money this weekend! My personal life also took a pretty big upswing this weekend too. Don't really know how much of that I can necessarily get into now, but I did meet someone who's very very cool.
Comments
I'm glad you had a good time, Brad. I lost my brother to suicide, so I can understand some of what you are going through. They never fade from our memories and that's what important. Safe travels.
Amanda & Adam Belaire
2015-01-28 21:53:04 +0000 UTCI find myself thinking about Justin just about every day over the last year. Heck, I kept myself distracted during this evening's packed house busy shift remembering him dressed as Jareth and singing to woo the ladies. Also, I've made a habit that, during the intro for episode of Atop the 4th Wall, when Justin appears, I kiss two fingers and hold them up, in his honor. Every time, no matter which intro it is. I do the same when he comes up in my Tumblr feed. It's hard in the beginning when you lose some so close and dear to you, and it's perfectly fine to cry about it. Better to let it out rather than keeping it bottled up. For at least a solid two weeks after my dear Uncle Ed passed away in October 2012, I cried daily, and was practically on the edge of losing it all the time. But over time, I found myself looking back and remembering all the good times I had, even little moments that most people wouldn't notice. Surrounding yourself with good friends and family and sharing the good times certainly helps ease the pain.
Christina Tilman
2015-01-28 06:31:04 +0000 UTCIf you're still on the road: Have a safe and relaxed trip back home. If you're already back home: Hope you had...you know ;) Yeah, the fact that it's a year since Justin passed away is something I noticed. I can clearly remember what I thought and felt when I read the horrible news. Sometimes time heals wounds but a year isn't nearly enough when it comes to deaths of family and friends. Aside from that, I'm glad to read that you still enjoyed the event, especially that you could meet friends. I also have two favourite weekends in every year when I finally can meet my friends :D And congratulations to your big personal life upswing whatever it is!
Tabascofanatikerin
2015-01-28 05:20:19 +0000 UTCDespite the stirring up of grief, I'm glad that the rest of the trip left you with a more refreshed feeling. No blizzard snow-ins, no con flu, no bad vibes reverberating through the internet. Also, a new Statham movie hits VOD this weekend. Sounds like a nice end to January.
Nick Michalak
2015-01-28 02:59:34 +0000 UTCOh man...
C.Nyx
2015-01-28 01:58:06 +0000 UTCGlad to hear you had a great time! I had an interesting experience the one time I met Justin, which was at an outting to celebrate a friend's birthday. That friend went on to kill himself, which hit twice as hard after Justin's passing. But it's great that you all have each other.
Riley
2015-01-28 01:28:01 +0000 UTCI usually don't show my feeling in those moment, making much people around me think i'm being heartless, I just keep it for my self and try to bring a little "joy" in their low moment. Also great to hear that your back and safe. So... the shit eating grin still work, right? Or that person just like bubbles. NICE
C.Nyx
2015-01-28 00:26:29 +0000 UTCGlad to hear you had a great trip!
Matt Rodabaugh
2015-01-28 00:22:06 +0000 UTCGlad it was a great trip! Safe travels home!
Bill Murphy
2015-01-27 23:51:27 +0000 UTC
