Good Fucking Lord

I'm going to have to be really careful with my words here, because Lord knows I don't need a bigger headache than the one that I've already got, but at this point I really don't give a shit. So I was out late last night watching two movies, one of them very funny, the other one awful, then this morning I wake up to find a couple of messages in my inbox that's about a topic that I seem to get every few months. Look, there's no love lost between me and one other "colleague" in this whole video making world of ours. And unfortunately, this other person appears to get trolled. A lot. Like, a lot a lot. Probably more so than Josh Hadley gets trolled, and that's saying something. Hell, I've been blamed for trolling this person before, and apparently I still get blamed for trolling this person, because, I don't know, reasons I guess. I've been known to troll my own website before, which I've been pretty open about, and most of the time it's left there as I wait for my friends to pick out which ones are me. I've also been known to troll the Channel Awesome Secrets page before, a bunch of us have. But my god, do I actually have to give a shit about about something if I'm going to troll it, and part of me trolling something doesn't involve taunts about someone that I don't give two flying fucks about, someone who I don't even follow online in any way shape or form, and someone who the only time that I EVER think about them, is when they constantly bring me into their bullshit. And I'm not going to troll someone what has some serious serious self-esteem issues like this. So I get messages in my inbox "are you trolling this person," "did you know this guy is getting picked on, do you know who it is?" Sure enough, I go to the dude's page, and sure enough, I've been blocked, because clearly CLEARLY I've got nothing better to do that obsess over someone that I don't even give a rats ass about. Someone who I've tried to make amends with so many goddamn times, that the 10th time I've had it thrown back in my face, I just threw my hands up and said "you know what, fuck it, some people are just dickheads and they will always be dickheads, and there is no way you can apologize to them or try to make things right." You may be thinking "if you don't give a rats ass, then why are you writing this?" Because that's what happens when you constantly hear about this or get blamed for someone else's problems. This has been going on for a very long time, and between that, and this person telling fans that I'm a "two faced dwarf" whose "movie sucks," I don't really care whose feelings I hurt here. Let me get this out in the open here, just to set up some context. This is a person who when they first started out, they asked me if I'd be interested in a show like theirs, and I said "yes definitely," and I watched it and it was quite good. This is a person who I stuck up for when a former member of MY OWN TEAM went after them on a Channel Awesome forum. This is a person who I called personally to apologize to when that happened, and dear god did I not have to do that. This is someone who I seemed to get along with fine, the whole two times I met them. But I guess all of that is nothing because I was late for showing up for a two line 30 second cameo, because my scheduling was a little fucked up, and I was a bit scatterbrained for a couple of days. And all of that is nothing too because I did a little ballbusting online, something many of us do to each other all the damn time, because we're snarky mother fuckers. And lets not forget that the last time this person got a cameo from me, it was filmed and sent on the day that I signed divorce papers. Yeah, that's the day I want to be doing that shit, but I did it anyway, because I wanted to help out. But no no, it's all me at fault here, as that totally cryptic tumblr post seems to suggest. I am absolutely the one at fault for all this person's problem, even though I was the FIRST one to multiple times step up and apologize, only to have it thrown back in my face with words of "thanks for the apology, but I don't trust you." For what? A couple of jokes online? Sorry, I'm not going to be lectured like that from the person who briefly made my life hell by insulting someone very close a couple of years ago just because they're so thin skinned and paranoid that they think everyone who has a problem with them must be in on some grand conspiracy that only exists to troll them on a rather weak parody twitter account. Admittedly, I said a couple things in a vlog about a year ago that probably shouldn't have been said, and it had to do with doing said cameo and being friended before and after doing it. I probably should have openly said that I was late for it (from oversleeping), but keep in mind, I had just gotten back from the polar vortex train ride from hell, and also, being late for a cameo then joking about it is hardly "fuck you, unfriend" territory, especially given all the times I've stuck up for this person. Keep in mind, I was unfriended BEFORE I was late for a cameo, that I later made good on my the way and apologized immensely. I was later cut from it. Regardless of that though, this person still gets trolled, and I'm going to keep getting messages upon messages upon message about it every single time that it happens, not to mention continually blocked from this dude's pages who, again, the only reason I visited it today was to see what all these damn messages were about. All of us get trolled and all of us get harassed. This dude has a lot of things said about him on my comments page, but do you know who else get negative things said about them in my comments? EVERYONE! I know people who have had other show up at their houses, many of us have gotten doxxed (which, by the way, the person I'm talking about was doxxed on my site, and guess who was there to take care of it), many of us have whole websites dedicated to us sucking (and to be fair, I say many things suck on my site, so fair game). Personally when that happens to me, I'm just flattered that someone has given up so much of their free time to talk about little old me. I would LOVE for the water to be under the bridge between me and this person, I would love to somehow move past the single most petty childish fucking tiff that I've ever been a part of in my life, but you know what, I've tried about 10 times to end this crap, and I'm not going for an 11th. If someone wants to sulk and blame people they don't like for all the problems online that they're having, fine, just keep me out of your shit.