Back on the wires!
Added 2020-05-03 09:51:25 +0000 UTCHaving a day off yesterday was important - I was absolutely wiped out. It reminded me of a thing that’s probably important. I learned it while grieving (so educational!).
It’s totally possible to feel normal when everything is chaotic and uncertain or awful around you - there’s an innate pragmatism that lets a lot of us get on with things and put our feelings or fear aside. But it takes extra juice.
You might feel absolutely normal, and then you’re absolutely exhausted but because you’ve put your fear or sadness or uncertainty or worry aside in order to get on with things, it can be hard to put your finger on why. “I didn’t do anything special this week, why am I so tired”?
It’s something I have to remind myself of sometimes, so I figured you might also like the reminder.
I’ll often put inchoate things aside in order to focus on things that ‘need doing’. Being completely incapacitated by feelings is something I try to avoid, because it makes me feel helpless. But in that odd way that our mind is full of rooms and veils and things going on in the background that we’re not always fully conscious of, you can get tricked by your mind into (as a totally random example pulled out of thin air and not at all autobiographically) not thinking you need a day off when you absolutely freaking do.
So, all that to say, join me and Ed Hedges on Instagram at 8.30pm Sydney time, 11.30am UK time, or access it later in the day. It should be up for 24 hours.
Today I’ll try saving the video from instagram onto my phone so I can put it on YouTube for you lovelies who aren’t into social media as well. Fingers crossed.
Xxx
A
