Life Update
Added 2023-06-17 19:10:44 +0000 UTCHi guys, so June hasnt been going very well for me in multiple ways. I have family issues happening behind the scenes and it has been very tough. So I have one of my sisters staying over and her sons. I haven’t had any time to make content either. It has been so hectic and chaotic. It doesn’t help that I have nowhere else to record but my very small room. And thin walls. There is dogs barking and day and kids screaming. I have been so overwhelmed and I haven’t been getting sleep either. I feel so guilty for not posting. I’m afraid to disappoint you guys. But I can’t help how I feel either and the not very positive environment I’m in right now. I’m thinking of dropping the monthly names video and just have that as a separate tier so it’s easier to track. I understand if you’re disappointed, but I have so much going on at the moment and realistically won’t get enough time to record and edit the names video. All 3 Patreon Exclusives will be coming this month. Just near the end. Or whenever the drama in life stops. Hopefully soon. I hope you guys aren’t upset. Because I’ve been worrying about you all the most. I’m so afraid of losing you. Sorry for the rant but I needed to tell you what’s going on without giving too much information. I love you all. This month hasn’t been good to me and I’m so upset about it. I really want to move out of here.
Comments
wishing you all the best love xoxo everything passes baby
Johnny GME
2023-06-19 13:59:37 +0000 UTCI am incredibly humbled and happy that I was able to give you that comment hug Taylor. I understand exactly what you mean and what it can do. When I was in a rough patch and having my breakdown in my vets office her kind words were a literal hug that I desperately needed. I was the quiet kid that could feel alone even when surrounded by friends and didn't want to draw any attention to himself or displease anyone. I would always take things on I didn't have to and in hindsight I was taken advantage of a few times. Never anything bad thankfully but I was left to get all the blame when things went wrong. It's hard setting boundaries and to this day I struggle between saying yes all the time to currently saying no to most everything. It hasn't always been appreciated when I say no but if I get lip from them I know I'm doing the right thing saying no to them. In my experience when people really care about you they'll understand you saying no and will honor it and try to help you instead. Don't be afraid Taylor of saying no and don't think you're the bad one for making boundaries. You aren't. It's okay to look after yourself and your needs. And don't be afraid to say so long to people that are using you either. That's something I struggled with too for a time. Writing or typing along with cooking amd baking is how I learned to express myself. If I had to talk in person I'd be a blubbering mess and would be of little to no help. Yours I feel is through what you create be it a piece of media or a drawing or something else. Allow yourself to speak through that medium Taylor if finding words is difficult. I for one want to hear what you have to say and will always give you a willing ear:)
PDH
2023-06-17 22:55:37 +0000 UTCOk not gonna lie I was disappointed as I have been looking forward to the names video for a hot minute lol But reading through your whole messages I realised it is NOT a big deal whatsoever as you have done tremendous job for us all so far🍆💦 I really appreciate you taking the time to explain in not too detail your situation,feel like we can understand more which helps with any disappointment 😊😘
Thunderbolt
2023-06-17 22:55:28 +0000 UTCYou would be correct. I’m a chronic people pleaser. It’s really bad. It can get me in trouble. I don’t know how to change it. I wish I was more assertive and had boundaries. Your comment made me burst out into happy tears. I felt so hugged by your comment if that makes sense. I felt very comforted. So my eyes involuntarily teared up. I feel understood thank you. I always find it hard to express my feelings, so this was such a beautiful message to read.
Solitary ASMR
2023-06-17 21:57:27 +0000 UTCSometimes life just wants to throw all it can at you and you are left trying to make things work. I know that intimately. As hard as it is please please try to make a space and time for you Taylor. I get the sense you're a people pleaser, as am I so I know how overwhelming it can be when you give up yourself to be helpful. Getting good sleep is important to staying positive so however you can improve your sleep- so long as it's a good thing- is worth a try. As for the worry about the lack of content and not being able to make any, it's ok. I understand as do most of us that right now isn't a good time for you and you need to shift focus. Don't feel you have to pause charges either I'm ok with paying my months and am not upset or feeling cheated. I'm not going to cancel in a huff I'm staying right here. You're the one riding the life wave right now but rest assured I and others are around you cheering you on and giving all the encouragement and ideas and positive words we can think of to help you. You'll pull thru Taylor it's tough and scary and upsetting but it's surmountable. Even little daily positive things are important so don't forget all the little things that make you feel better and happy. Eventually all those little things add up to big things they always do. Lastly Taylor thank you for all the great content both here and YouTube that you've released. You don't have to but if you can and it can be a few quick words but let us know how you're doing when you can and when you want to. That way we know at least a smidge how you are:)
PDH
2023-06-17 21:42:01 +0000 UTCYou always look great. Even with bed-head waking up sleepy eyed.
John Deaux
2023-06-17 20:07:29 +0000 UTCI didn’t know that! Thank you! I’ll look for that if I need extra time off! Hopefully I’ll just need this weekend and Monday. And yes pictures I can definitely do! Just been so stressed lately and I haven’t looked/felt my best. I can share the titties though ❤️
Solitary ASMR
2023-06-17 19:25:53 +0000 UTCThank you Dandre. I needed some reassurance. This really means lots.❤️
Solitary ASMR
2023-06-17 19:22:59 +0000 UTCYour die hard fans are going to stick around. I'm sorry that you're going through a lot. It may be impossible to film, but a couple of pictures to let us know you're still alive would be comforting 😊. Also, if you need extended time away, there is a Patreon feature that allows you to pause subscription charges for a month. That way, nobody feels cheated.
John Deaux
2023-06-17 19:18:48 +0000 UTCTaylor I hope all goes well, there is no need to apologize everyone goes through something and everyone needs a break. So take your time and upload when it’s best for you hope it gets better ❤️🫶🏾🫶🏾
Dandre Spencer
2023-06-17 19:13:22 +0000 UTC
