update 80.

september 11th-17th.

another week, another update and another time where i have to figure out how the hell to put what i did into words. for a writer, i'm not very good at explaining myself. the fact that i'm able to produce anything coherent in these updates is a miracle in itself. as it is, i've spent ten minutes trying to write my next bit so if it makes no sense, just pretend it does. smile and nod.

last week, i said i had three scenes left to write. for simplicity's sake, let's call them A's scene, Sebastian's scene (wooo ! making a comeback) and Ciel's (the drug dealer) scene.

Sebastian's scene required only a couple of hundred words to finish, so i got that done and out of the way earlier in the week. you could almost call the scene an interlude with how short it is, but it's an important piece in bridging things together. super cute super sweet. as time goes on i find that i like Sebastian more and more. not that i disliked him before, but i saw him as much more of a side character than i do now, where i find myself smiling softly when he appears. simp.

saying that A's scene follows the same formula as the other ros would assume there was a formula to begin with. i might have called it this earlier, but writing this and struggling with conversation topics really made me doubt myself. definitely didn't help when my imposter syndrome came rolling in and had me questioning whether the scene was even important, but that's just my insecurities speaking. because this scene, like everyone else's, is important. i'm tempted to write out a document on A's character development and how this scene will contribute to it just to get my thoughts in order, but i haven't gotten around to it. with my perfectionism streak, however, i probably will at some point. it doesn't show you a side of A you haven't seen yet, unfortunately, but it does explore a little more of their anxiety and restlessness. true to my recent strategy, the outline is done and all that's left for me to do is fill in the choices. i'm hoping to get that done this week.

that leaves me with Ciel. ah. the less i say about this the better, i think. i've already given out way more information than i wanted to for this chapter, including revealing that Ciel's going to feature in it. vaguely speaking, it's an interesting scene. i would consider what i've written so far to be mostly tame, but i'm just reaching the part where tensions are going to peak. next week i can speak a little more on this, but if all goes well, this might become a favourite scene of mine. 

hope this was understandable lol. my brain is fried from school and i didn't want to put off the update until tomorrow. take care of yourselves <3 (and for anyone who's new from the Blane drabble, hi !)

stats.

455,865 words (+4260)

sneak peek.

Ciel leans their chin into a hand, elbow resting on the table. "Aren't you getting tired of this? Surely this conversation is no more fun for you than it is me."