update 76.

august 14th-20th.

i think i've done it. i've finally jinxed myself. it's either that or the stress of school coming up (excuse me while i go throw up) that i've been unable to write lately. or, that's a lie. it's not that i haven't written any words at all. it's just that every word i write feels... dull. for my standards, at least. i've been told i can be a bit harsh on myself so honestly, maybe someone else will read it and say it's completely fine, but to me, it's just not up to par. i'd rather close the word doc than write a couple thousand words that i'm not proud of. i'm being dramatic. i know that. but it's frustrating. not being able to do the thing i'm supposedly good at is just. like. come on brain, work for once.

all that said, i did manage to get some work done before my little episode. the goal was to finish K's route, but i left off yesterday with a couple of more choices to fill in. i'm not necessarily estatic to finish that off but maybe if i move on from this scene, i'll get my inspiration back. quite the 180 from last week where i was saying how much i love K's scene, huh? of course, my slump doesn't mean i hate the scene now. it's just become the bane of my existence as of yesterday, so forgive me if i don't look at it as fondly anymore.

then, as i'm sure you all know, after K, i have [A]'s and Rylan's branches left. i'm hoping that their energetic personalities will help me regain my own energy, but that remains to be seen. i've mapped out Rylan's scene in my head already so all that's left is to get it out on my document. [A]'s is still up in the air, but they come to me so naturally that i'm not worried about what i'm going to write (only that i can; fuck writing slumps for real). in all honesty, if this keeps up, i might skip over the branches entirely and move onto the second major scene in the chapter. i really don't want to take a break from this story. as stuck as i may be right now, it genuinely is such a highlight of my life and i truly can't stay away from these characters for long. if i do end up pausing for a bit, you'll definitely still be getting content one way or another.

i know this is a more negative update but if all turns out well, this will just be a temporary thing. nothing can be worse than my writer's block writing chapter nine. so. if this turns out to be anything close to that, i'll rip my hair out. but it's not. i won't let it. manifest it with me. it'll be fine.

hope you're all doing well <3

stats.

441,951 words (+3014)

sneak peek.

K looks unperturbed. "And you never said sorry for interrupting my evening either, so does it really matter?"