Shut up and kiss me chap 7 intro

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In complete disbelief at what he had just heard, Crowley couldn’t say a word or take his eyes off Aziraphale’s tear-filled ones. He couldn’t even push him away again, or separate himself from his warmth for a single moment. It was too much to process and he couldn’t believe that his angel had actually manipulated him to this extent, he didn’t believe him capable of such deception… but until now he had always been wrong to underestimate him.

He took a long, interminable sigh and asked:

“Seriously, angel? I… I can’t believe it, when you realized I was conscious, why the hell didn’t you tell me? Why the hell did you expose me like this when you knew I wouldn’t remember a thing and that… and that… oh my God, Aziraphale, you’re incredible, you took everything you wanted knowing all along that I wouldn’t remember a thing?! It’s fucking easy like this!”

“No, it’s not! I wanted to tell you, but you… you said you didn’t see the point of making love if I hadn’t been there for you when you woke up, let alone if you hadn’t even remembered it!”

Aziraphale looked at him with eyes full of regret, but he didn’t hesitate to continue:

“I’m suffering and I’ll suffer even more later, but at least I’ll keep these moments in my heart, I’ll know that you love me and forgive me, am I so selfish?”

The angel’s hand on his cheek was warm when Crowley took it and squeezed it. He no longer had the strength to get angry, nor to fight.

“Do you really want to bring me back to oblivion and suffering as if none of this ever happened? Why do you do this to the person you say you love?”

“I don’t want this, Crowley! Oh, seriously, what kind of sadistic manipulator do you take me for?”

“Didn’t you… plan this? Isn’t this another “insurance” of your miracle?”

“What?! Of course not! I never thought your conscience would emerge, let alone plan a scenario like this! Everything we shared in this dream will be lost, but not through my fault!”

Crowley was shocked, and when the angel withdrew his hand in indignation he was even more so.

“Do you seriously think I would take advantage of you like a coward who doesn’t want to face the consequences of his actions? Oh, you’ve said so many mean things to me over the years, but this, seriously, beats them all…”

“But I thought… I connected the facts and…”

Aziraphale was now pissed as well as desperate. He planted his hands on Crowley’s chest to push him away and started to get up from his knees, but Crowley held him back.

Why had the situation turned upside down?

It always worked that way between them, didn’t it?