Shut up and kiss me chap.6 preview

Back to Crowley's POV!

Of course, with him comes a good load of angst... I'll leave you to imagine what happens after this...

I'm almost at the end of the chapter, but I promise sparks! eheh

Enjoy your sneak peek:

Crowley was lost, completely enveloped in the warmth of the angel who had saved his soul and condemned his heart.

He always had been, but the truth of what was happening between them had only belonged to his fantasies in the past: his feelings were meant to be hidden, his carnal desires kept as a shame.

Even though he was an incurable optimist, he would never have hoped that one day those dreams would come true.

Yes, dreams… that was the point, the awareness that was ruining the happiness of that eternal moment.

Had Aziraphale confessed and given himself freely only because in the bubble he had created no one could discover his dirty secret?

Even though he trusted his words and his sincere tears, even though he had truly forgiven him, Crowley sensed that something was wrong, that if he were to wake up in his bed, shocked after an intense orgasm, Aziraphale would not be beside him.

The thought alone was driving Crowley crazy.

"Ah, Crowley, slow down... you hurt me, wait"

The voice of his angel, less than a breathless whisper, made him jump.

His soft hands were gripping the feathers of his shoulders in an attempt to resist the force of Crowley's thrusts, who emerged from his thoughts in a magnificent interlocking of sweaty bodies.

He had been overcome by the heat of seeing him so eager for him, he didn't want to be brutal.

"I'm sorry, I knew I would lose control... I'm an animal"

"No! No, you are fine, just stay with me... it's strange to feel you inside, but distant... where do your thoughts wander, my love?"

They were still deeply connected, but they just looked at each other, breathing heavily into each other's mouths, mixing air and emotions.

Aziraphale had rested his forehead against the demon's gently, his hands were now relaxed, caressing the places he had previously scratched.

Crowley was starting to feel cold, the only source of light and heat came from the sun beneath him. The absolute center of his universe.

"I'm scared, angel. That all of this will end if I let go. I'm afraid of losing you again."

There, he had said it. Now everything would go to hell.

Aziraphale laughed softly and caressed his cheek.

"Is that why you don't want to have an orgasm? Do you think you'll wake up?"

"It often happens when you feel a scare or a strong emotion during a... ngk.

If I... if I couldn't stay connected and all of this suddenly disappeared, would you be there with me when I woke up?"

Silence.