⛥May Q&A

Happy June everyone! How are you guys holding up lately? Over here, breathing non-carcinogenic air is nothing but a distant dream as my upstairs neighbor's only hobby seems to be talking on the phone and smoking literally every 10 minutes. Though I finally managed to go grocery shopping and at least my fresh fruity yogurt bowl isn't poisoning half the neighborhood. I actually already finished this post 2 hours ago but Patreon managed to fuck it up and suddenly my page looked like this 

So I'm writing it all again. 

Right now the evening sun is shining in my face, reflecting off of the window that I, indeed, keep getting up every 5 minutes to open and close. It leaves me in this awkward place of enjoying the sunshine but also regretting being alive in a world where people are so unnecessarily ignorant, vile and cruel. Except whoever is cooking bacon as the distinct scent floods my windows and for an actual change invites a sensory experience that is not unpleasant. Life, I just don't know how to feel about you. You tease me with glimpses of temporary pleasure as you simultaneously cause me pain and make me wonder if it wouldn't be healthier for me to leave you. Are you trying to convince me you're worth it after all? Or am I trying to convince myself that you're not as bad as I know inside you truly are? Do you take pleasure in abusing my soul, telling yourself you're my only option? Or are you merely showing me my own wounds I haven't healed from that the person who inflicted them will continue to deny? I may never be able to answer these questions, but I can answer the ones you sent in.

What’s your favourite holiday destination? I'm not sure if you're asking about my favorite destination out of all the places I went or my ideal holiday destination if I could have my way. So I'll answer both. I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to vacation in several countries in Europe. But I was unlucky enough to have cheap parents and for a lack of accommodations was always too uncomfortable to enjoy the culture and attractions in all the places we went. Too cold for a lack of heating, too anxious because too many people, too hungry because left alone at a stranger's house all day and too sweaty because not allowed to take daily baths in south Russia mid-August. My favorite therefore has to be Spain because we stayed in a hotel with real beds and no big black spiders and I got to explore markets at night, swim all I wanted in a pool vs jellyfish laden ocean waters and eat my favorite fruit salad at the buffet. It totally came out of a can but I thought it was delicious. Kids, amirite? If I got to choose I would like to vacation in Hawaii. Heck, I would like to live there if we can ever afford it. I like the idea of swimming in the ocean every day, being warm and breathing effortlessly in the humid air. Sign me up for a private beach in Hawaii?
 

Apart from having a sassy sense of humour do you also have a dark sense of humour? I do now. I never used to think dark humor was that funny but ever since one fateful night in my life it's been "death" bwahahahahahaha.
 

How long does it usually take to edit your videos? If it's a short and simple video at least a few days. But longer videos can take months.
 

I know you've watch the Anime, but have you read the Shiki manga or original novel? No. Do they have an English version? I can't read Japanese. The anime was dope though. It's not really scary as you watch it but for someone with paranoid tendencies (me, I'm paranoid tendencies) it just follows you with this eerie and unsettling feeling long after you've turned it off. I think what causes it is the realism in the story setting of Shiki. There isn't a stark contrast between the anime and real life like, say, for example, Sailor Moon where there is a strong fantastical vibe to the story. Subconsciously, you register that those glitzy transformations and flying action scenes don't happen in real life. Shiki, however, is just like real life. In fact, the logical narrative of the doctor highlights rational thinking which we associate with humans and makes the show extra immersive and relatable. The way he tries to make sense of the seemingly unexplainable makes you identify with him and assume his point of view. Heck, even the Shiki act just like real people from start to finish. Though the more I think about it the more it seems to me that they act more like real people than the real people I observe around me (and I'm inclined to put that down to Japanese culture). With a realistic setting like that, it makes you feel like this is something that could actually happen. That it could happen to you. It's a great story.

How would you rate the people around you? Mine get a 2 for 2 fucking noisy. I hope you enjoyed this read and the June Q&A post will be available here shortly. Stay safe and hang in there. I'm working on getting videos out as fast as possible (without compromising quality) to help you survive this media mass manipulation shit show.