taking a break

hey, im going to pause billing for this patreon for a month. this will skip the next billing period and only charge at the next one. patreon doesnt let people pause for more than a month at a time, so billing will happen bi-monthly for a bit most likely. the reason doing this is due to stress around failing to meet expectations. ive been in a creative slump since the beginning of the year and i cant seem to shake it. and because im not finishing any projects, i have nothing to share here. so i feel like im taking your guys money while giving nothing in return. im very grateful to you all for supporting me, but thats exactly why i dont feel good continuing billing as i am right now. for the past months ive been spending more time stressing out over not working and not having any work to show here, than i spent actually working. maybe i rushed to get out of my winter burnout and never really left it. this month ive been spending time meeting with friends and spending time with my partner, but the whole time theres been a nagging at the back of my head that i should be doing something. that i should be working and making anything at all, but whenever i try and work on something i care about, i feel like im getting crushed under my own expectations of myself and the quality i should be delivering. expectations of how fast i worked in the past and how driven, motivated i was. i just cant muster that right now and frankly that scares the shit out of me. all i know right now is that i need to get all these expectations out of my mind, cuz if they stay ill never be able to make something again with how the trend is going. i just need to enjoy life right now without feeling guilty. if a month break isnt enough for me ill pause it again or ill unpublish this page and reinstate it when im feeling ready. i wont be posting progress updates in that time, even if i make something. i just need to make things for myself for a while i think. this isnt the end of me making videos and animations, i just really need a step back from it all for a while. i want to thank you all for supporting me again, even with my shotty output as of late. ill let yall know when im back, but for now: bibibibibi