Really depressed
Added 2023-02-20 17:47:55 +0000 UTCHi friends, I've been really depressed lately.
I feel like everything is going to shit in my life.
I feel really undesirable, unattractive and just dead weight in this world.
I've been skipping my meds bcs I can't remember if I took them already or not.
So I'll focus 100% on streaming. It will be my priority in life from how on. I'll work hard and maybe that way I'll feel better again.
Here is a really cute video of pouty and kissy bella.
(I absolutely love this filter on insta! It's a sanrio one....actually, I've been really obsessed with sanrio overall. It brings me a really good sense of comfort, like from when I was a kid and liked kerokerokeropi. Now my favorites are kerokero, pochaco, cinamoroll and pompompurin, but to wear on my nails I'll definitely make my melody, hellokity and kuromi ones, since they are the most feminine and extra ones)
Please give me another chance to prove I am worthy of this life 😞
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2023-02-21 01:23:22 +0000 UTCI'm all for the VOD's being back 😁 cant catch a stream for so long.. I feel bad not being there more, evenso when you feel this way Bella Bella team always here, even if in stealth mission 🥷❤️
2023-02-20 20:58:47 +0000 UTCWe're all going to be behind you on this, you're not on your own with this ❤
2023-02-20 19:04:36 +0000 UTCYes! I'll work hard on it, I wonder if I can make it last. I'm excited
Bella
2023-02-20 18:46:53 +0000 UTCI agree on the insta filter, it's cute :)) I think Brians suggestion is a good solution for your forgetting to take meds issue. A little structure in your life could work wonders. Everything is going to be okay.
2023-02-20 18:46:01 +0000 UTCDamn that's smart. I should do that!
Bella
2023-02-20 18:13:14 +0000 UTCI think I could stream everyday at 20:00 Brasilia time. So I can take a shower before, and have the AC on to be as comfortable as I can. Also would help me try to shower everyday. I also want to start blowdrying my hair, since it's getting longer and kinda bugging me when I have to wait for it to dry
Bella
2023-02-20 18:10:04 +0000 UTCThat's actually a great ideia! I'd feel a sense of responsibility and it would help me get ready for future responsibility like that. Also, with VODs back I won't feel so guilty of having a schedule, because even if people can't make it to the stream at that certain time, they can watch the VOD and still get their dose of bella :)
Bella
2023-02-20 18:08:23 +0000 UTCAs for meds, I record myself taking the medication so I can always look back on the previous day to make sure I don’t forget. Maybe combine that with the stream schedule thing and make a short stream of yourself taking your meds with the vod saved for just that.
Brian Green
2023-02-20 18:07:24 +0000 UTCI do think a consistent stream schedule could help bring order to the chaos and give you a little something to look forward to every day.
Brian Green
2023-02-20 18:04:35 +0000 UTCI’m sorry that you feel like everything is going to shit, I know that feeling where life crashes down around you hard. If there is anything I can do, let me know. You can always dm me if you want to vent or you just need some one to hype you up.
Brian Green
2023-02-20 18:02:31 +0000 UTC
