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Personal State

TW: Drugs

I've not been doing so well. I wasn't sure if I would say this as I am quite embarrassed about it but communication with you seems like a more ideal option. I won't bore you with the details but long story short, my mum is chronically unwell and is getting worse. I also suffer from the symptoms of my chronic illnesses. I am going through a divorce. It's a lot at once for me. The problem is that I have been struggling to cope with it properly and ended up resorting to daily drugs as a coping mechanism (Alcohol, GHB, Ecstasy, Cocaine, Crystal MD and Ketamine). It was to the point where I was genuinely considering Meth. I am under a lot of financial stress as I have tanked my finances due to not caring about my future anymore. I know this is all my fault. I just want to communicate my current life state. I am just happy to have an opportunity for a fresh start.

I know drugs are not the healthy route and I have flushed all that I have. This could have played out very differently and I am thankful I stopped now before it was too late. I am trying my best to recover mentally.

You are all so patient with me already and I feel like I have failed you all. I know I have a lot to catch up on.

I really can't thank you enough for your support and kindness.

Thank you for reading.

-Nathaneal

Comments

How are you doing now? Apart from the seratonin poisoning of course!

Melissa Lungu

Praying for you to have a smooth recovery <3 don't give up please!

KC

Sending love, strength, faith and security your way. You are gifted and share so much beauty with us. Try to keep some of that beauty for yourself too hun.

Prahkeet-Mama P Sims

I will pray for you sends you much love.

voom666

I just subscribed but already I see how much of a beautiful soul you are. Thank you for your honesty and openness about your mental and physical state. It is nothing to be embarrassed or ashamed about. That is genuinely a lot on your plate that anyone can struggle with. I am proud of you for wanting to start over and fight for yourself. Please get the help you whether it be NA or AA meetings or therapy. You can come back from this. I believe in you. You are special and will have success.

Brazil_BarbieSimmer

You have nothing to be embarrassed about. You are owning your mistakes and mental health status. That takes strength and courage to do. I'm proud of you for flushing what you had left of the drugs. I recommend finding some NA meetings in your area, if possible. There are also online ones if you don't have anything near you or if you are unable to travel to places. Remember that sobriety is one day at a time, sometimes even one moment at a time. Keep that mindset that "first thought is wrong" meaning to stop and think before you take action with anything. Don't give in to that first thought/impulse. My heart goes out to you. I'm sending so much peace, comfort, and strength your way. You've got this. There is light after the dark.

Samantha Jackson

it took a lot of courage for you to share this with us, N. you have a lot of love and support in your corner. take it one day at a time. sending you warmth.

aregularmess

Sending you so much love you will fully recover

stormmyy111

Sending good and healing vibes to you. You are strong and not alone, never forget that ♥

Indie *

I am so sorry, this sounds very hard. Please take your time to recover and seek help if possible.

Anna

I'm so sorry this is happening to you. You will be in my thoughts. You can get through this.

Rebecca Adkins

You’re very brave for being honest. You are taking steps in the right direction. We love you! You haven’t failed any of us. I’m wishing you love, healing and sanity. Your wellbeing comes first ❤️

Jenapher Calvillo

It is so hard what you are going through, but you are doing the best thing with one step forward at a time. We are really proud of you, Goly!!

Leah Cates


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