This one has been a real back and forth between planning/sketching/designing and just winging it/improvising/saying "f*** it."
I designed the silhouette in photoshop first. Painted it. Then I said "f*** it" and just went in and started winging it.
The winging it was kind of an automatic painting process. Just making marks and following where they led me.
That brought it to a new exciting place for me, so I took a picture of that and put it back in photoshop and did a value study, which I then faithfully painted onto the panel.
Then for the colors I said "f*** it" again. I started using thin layers of colors at first but also did some color mixing other painting techniques that I don't usually do on paintings like this.
The idea for her expression and the flowers came from mourning my poor Venus fly trap. As the weather started heating up I wasn't watering it enough. And I didn't realize it until it was too late. And at some point it became clear that it wasn't going to make it. Watching it slowly die made me absurdly sad. I couldn't believe how upset I found myself over this plant. So This piece was inspired by that energy.