Some Personal Updates

This has been kind of heavy on my mind for a little bit, but I wanted to be transparent, especially with my supporters. None of this is a call for sympathy, though I fully appreciate it. This is me trying to be open.

I am overwhelmed. In a multitude of ways.

Con prep and the move set me about a month back, and not as little as I hoped. It grew even longer with my own health conditions making recovering from the move very difficult. 

This has led to both a lot of stress that I have put on myself with not being able to produce timely for you all, as well as a lot of financial stress, as I've had to stretch what is typically a two/two and a half month budget into going on four, with a few big and unexpected expenses coming up along the way. Patreon has been my only buffer, really, and it's been incredibly important to me. Which has led me to put a lot of pressure on myself to meet certain deadlines.

I have been pretty open with my health struggles, both mentally and physically. From my perpetual battle with severe bipolar, and my more recent issues concerning my dominant working arm and the state of my back. What I haven't been too open with is my struggles with maintaining a more traditional job, or my struggles with health insurance.

My health, pain management, and mental state (especially in the wake of 2020) have made it incredibly hard for me to maintain more traditional employment, even part time. I factor rest and MD appointment times into my commission and Patreon turn around times. But I have been told very recently that I do not yet qualify for disability. I have also lost my medicaid support, something I am trying to get back. This has been a big set back to my health progress the past couple of months.

But this is why all of your support, both my clients and Patreon supporters, means so much to me. This is how I support myself. This is my job, and at this current point the only one I can manage. But it's also my only source of income, so that leads to it's own share of stress. And it's not any of your fault. It does lead to me putting a lot of pressure on myself that can turn into a vicious cycle.

Anyway, now that's all out of the way!
While I've had some hiccups, I still plan to have commissions open by the end of next week, or the beginning of the second week of August.
I also plan to have a stream schedule up in August.
But, as my next round of commissions go live, I plan to take a few days fully off to recharge (and work on some cosplay), as well as the rest of that week to start things at a leisurely pace so I can recover before diving all in again, and getting back to my typical schedule.

Thank you all for being so understanding. And thank you all for reading. Your support means the world to me.