XaydLove

sadboi chronicles #3

Added 2021-04-15 16:54:22 +0000 UTC

Doomed -- 13 April 2021 1:23AM

am i doomed to a life of darkness?
a mime in the night.
bumping into invisible walls.
tripping over unseen obstacles.
trying to find a little light.
a little warmth.
will you light my candle?

will i always feel like i'm drowning?
struggling to breathe when i can barely keep afloat.
waves upon waves of turbulent sea crashing over me.
swimming in the wrong direction.
can no longer see the shore.
will you be my lighthouse?

will i ever be able to catch my breath?
it's like i've been running a marathon.
no preparation.
no water.
no one to cheer me on.
no idea what i'm doing.
how long more do i have to run?
are you waiting for me at the finish line?

am i really as alone as i feel?
it's like i'm screaming into a vacuum.
no one can hear me.
not even an echo.
and if they can, they're not listening.
they don't care.
i don't blame them.
do you at least see me?

where is my light?
everything is turning grey.
despite the rainbow i work with.
the yellow i use to frame my face.
the joy i usually exude when you're here.
i feel broken.
do you have any glue?