Colin Huggins

Father of a new day

Added 2023-06-18 18:30:50 +0000 UTC

I don't like making definitive statements like this, but today I'm pretty sure deserves one. Only ironic that it's Father's day.

I'm finally finished with this phase of my life in which I decided to resolve my own negativity such that I could better deal with the negativity of others and make New York City and the world a better place for humanity and ultimately all life.

Unfortunately the unequivocal realization that has ended this phase is that, I cannot resolve the negativity inside me.

Because the negativity and pain inside me is the same as the pain and negativity inside all of humanity. I kept facing it and seeing a monster that looked like it needed to climb the empire State building or at the very least have some kind of epic end of the world movie trilogy made about it.

And so needless to say, this is not a project I can knock out in a summer or year or two. And it's not something I can deal with merely within myself, involving everyone else will be sometimes imperative.

There's so much more to discuss about this and honestly I'm just too completely overwhelmed to write about it right now. But I will say that in order to come to this realization, my life is has pretty much been destroyed in every way possible.

This phase required me to lose pretty much everything, and at the moment Id just like a little lunch before beginning to figure out what's next. Would anyone like to buy me lunch?

Venmo: everythingwillbeok
PayPal: colinhuggins.nyc@gmail.com

My prediction is not. I expect I'll be hungry until dinner time. But whatever.