GoodMomsBadChoices

TGIFF (Thank God it’s Fucking Friday)

Added 2023-09-22 16:00:08 +0000 UTC

No homework and a long weekend. Thank you Jewish holiday! Went to parent night at my daughters school and they were running down what to expect all year. This is for sure the year that I start struggling with 3rd grade math 😫 have y’all heard of Singapore math? What in the actual confusion is this shit.

Anyway, my boo drew this cute picture and wrote things that make me proud which enhanced my mood cuz the last few days have been tough. For those who watched last weeks episode in full you probably saw Milah and I have a tense few minutes and to be honest I was irritated the rest of the episode lol. We are human and it’s true, I have not been myself over the last few months. Short, irritable and a bit angry. We recorded today and I think I’m the emotional one on the podcast now 😂 I’ve been crying all month on camera WTF. This is so not me but I did say that this year I wanted to be my rawest self. Well baby, I am far from perfect, I backtrack on my progress, I make choices I know aren’t for my highest good too. However, I know I can’t stray from my center for too long. That’s when the work starts to reign you back in and say “bitch, what the fuck are you doing?!”. I’ve been going through a range of high and lows and honestly been hard on myself through the process because I think I have attached some of my value to how “sensible” the choices I make are. Being proud to be the friend in the group that doesn’t do unreasonable dumb shit. But guess what, I ain’t exempt! I do unreasonable dumb shit. So I guess cheers to being a messy mess and then getting back in the drivers seat and getting your shit together all over again. This is a reminder to myself and to you that if you fuck up and betray yourself it doesn’t mean you start from zero. It just means that it’s time to dig deeper and explore the parts of you that needed that chaos. That love. Whatever it may be.

Ok this is longer then I meant it to be. Bye!

P.s.

I changed my hair color. It’s growing in me. Am I ice spice? Annie? Side show bob? 🤣