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I'm officially a third grade mom (with anxiety) !

Added 2023-08-18 18:32:02 +0000 UTC

This week, Luna started the third grade (insert ugly cry here) and although I've been thinking about this transition for months I still am a little bit in shock. The daunting idea that the tiny, cute babies we birth evolve into kids then into adults and there's not a damn thing we can do about it is scary af . The concept of time has recently had me in a state of anxiety. Fear of not doing enough fast enough. Fear of not being everywhere at one time with everyone. The fear of missing out. The fear of not having enough. This underlying fear has had me spinning at times. Spinning trying to "produce" and honestly in addition to the anxiety I feel like I have severe ADHD. I struggle to slow down and focus on anything. I struggle to want to play with Luna. I struggle focusing on school and in work and then I feel shame and guilt about my lack of focus.

In all of this I am mostly trying to focus on the truth, which is, my time in this existence is limited. The things that are most important to me are the people I love and love is free. Remembering, that I must be included in the list of people that I love. I'm working on being intentional with my ease and pleasure by slowing down to basque in all that is good and focus on the things that I actually have control over. Improving on my own design gently with love and compassion is what I intend on dedicating the remainder of this year on. Slowing down to smell the flowers, play the barbies, laugh, rest and create! I refuse to live my life wasting it on shit that doesn't matter. This life is temporary so I truly want to be living it and not stressing it!

xoxox,

Milah