A very disjointed Q&A
Added 2024-02-26 16:57:03 +0000 UTCSoooo, as I'll explain in this, my brain isn't at it's best right now lol. I recorded the February Gobbo ramble but it sounded a mess. So here's an excerpt of the actual questions I managed to answer as well as a bit of a personal and channel update. I'll be going back and recording and reading comments from January in March's ramble instead π
Oh, and March billing is of course PAUSED
Content Warning:
I give a health update that discusses cancer (I'm ok!)
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First dream I remember very well is about a tunnel. It started with me being on a school trip with my middle school class. Somewhere in the woods, probably to hike, when it started raining. We started looking for shelter, and we found an old rusty door, to something that looked like either an abandoned underground bunker (there are a lot of these left in Poland, because of all the wars), or a forsaken pump station/water supply entrance. In any case, we decided to go in, to avoid getting completely soaked outside. It was very dark and greenish inside. It was a single room, about the size of a classroom, with remains of wooden furniture here and there, mostly destroyed by age or whatever critters decided to also take a shelter here. We had a couple of small flashlights, so out of curiosity we started looking around. We found a couple of files and documents, in a language we couldn't understand, as well as a second door, that led further inside. Not really having anything better to do, since it was still pouring outside, we went deeper. The walls and floors were made from the same greenish stone (now that I think about it, I probably was inspired by Oblivion sewers). After a short while, the corridor branched out into three separate tunnels. We decided not to split up, and all went into the left one. We came to a small room, with nothing inside, except a big tunnel in one of the walls. Roughly 4m (~13 feet in freedom units) tall and 4m wide, it had one major peculiarity - it didn't have the middle section of the floor. There were two sides of the floor near the walls, around 1m (3.2 feet) wide each, but there was pure void between them. We attempted to shine light into it, but all we saw was pure blackness staring back at us. Since a jump of 2m is not trivial, we decided to split up. Half of the group would go on the left side of the tunnel, and half on the right. And we started marching, deeper and deeper. The tunnel seemed to be endless, and actually pretty boring. Only sometimes there would be old boards spread across the void. But they were so old and rotten that we didn't even try to use them as a makeshift bridge. Sometimes we had to exchange supplies, and needed to throw them very well to the other side. And there was always this weird sense of unease, that just one wrong step, and you could fall into the chasm. We camped, always having at least one person on the watch (d&d rules) on each side, being very careful that no one turned in their sleep too much, risking a quick tumble into the nothingness. But the tunnel really seemed to be endless. I had a continuation of this dream several times. Like once it was about what was under the chasm, and what could this tunnel be even used for. That the tunnel itself was something akin to a stone railway for gigantic stone carts. That their wheels would drive on the portions of the floor near the walls, and could dump whatever it had inside into the chasm. That under the impenetrable darkness, there was a coal/mineral factory, that needed frequent coal/mineral deposits in specific areas along the assembly line. But all of these consecutive dreams always had the same twist at the end - that they were just speculations, brought up by bored members of the group. We never learned anything about the tunnel while going deeper and deeper. All we could do was hypothesize.
BlackComet
2024-03-17 04:20:56 +0000 UTCHaya! One question: Have you ever considered becoming a theme park engineer? Because I swear to god this upload was an absolute rollercoaster. First of all, just like Atl said, fuck cancer. And I send all my prayers to the god of blind luck that you and your family get through this and stay well. Thank you for sharing such personal update with us, and know we send back nothing but love and support. ;-; Gosh, how do you even move on from such a heavy topic? Ah yes, audios. We're here for audios, aren't we. I can relate to the story with unreleased audios so much. I have a lot of problems with telling myself "yup, this is good enough" when working on my projects. Especially when working on something bigger, very often halfway through I get this voice in my head "What amateur wrote this?! oh yeah. me.". And sometimes that voice is right, because I do learn a lot since I began working on the project, so the old stuff doesn't look as good as my current work. But also if I would've always listened to that voice I never would've gotten anything done. If you're afraid of what YouTube might think of audios you deem subpar, you can run them through us first! Even in very unfinished state. Methinks getting second opinion on such things is often very helpful (and also we get more content :3 ). Those were some thoughtful reflections about toxic relationships in media! Personally, I really enjoy weird/toxic/questionable relationships (when they're fictional!!). Because of two main reasons: I'm a helpless romantic, so I love stories where love triumphs even between two seemingly incompatible characters. And the second reason is that I love "fixing" them in my little scenarios I think about before falling asleep. This is actually what brought me to ASMR RP content in the first place. Even before I knew about this genre, I really enjoyed listening to Dangerous ASMR audios before bed. Just as little free audio novels. Pretty much all of her audios were about very toxic relationships, so I always had a lot of "fixing" to do with my imagination. It's a very interesting topic to me, so thank you for your opinion! I think I will start to look for the things you mentioned, maybe I will learn something new about myself. I used to dream a lot more, not so much nowadays. Probably because my schedule is so flexible, that my alarm clock never wakes me up anymore. And I think that the best way to remember dreams is to get woken up in the middle of one... I have two that I remember pretty vividly though. But I will share them in the comments under this, to not make this one comment 30 pages long :l I hope that your vacations went well! Or that at least you gleamed a little bit of joy from them, you really deserve that. You wanted some insults, so here's my best attempt: - The audios on Patreon are pretty quiet. Maybe a bit too quiet. And you wanted questions! So I've got one: - Some people find the sound of a beating heart really relaxing and comforting, while others can find it pretty disturbing and unnerving. Which camp are you in?
BlackComet
2024-03-17 04:18:43 +0000 UTCI hope you find peace in your vacation, sounds like this year has already dealt you enough pain. Praying for you, and your family. I've listened to quite a few roleplays with flawed characters but I think yours are the best. They feel the most human, like they're actual people with their own baggage. That takes a lot of work and it shows. I think my favorite is the "Saving your tsundere bully" one because of how many layers there are to her antagonism. She's not just mean, she's defensive, and scared, and lonely. She's just self-aware enough to know she might be pushing away a potential friend but she also has every reason to keep her guard up. Seriously, fantastic work. I also have always had a hard time with the romanticization of bad relationships. I'm more chill about it now but when I was younger, seeing two characters who hated each other beung shipped would piss me off. I grew up seeing two peple who hated each other live as a couple. It isn't cute, or fun, there's no romantic tension. It's stressful, and boring, and repetetive. It's like crawling through a minefield. There's a couple of recurring locations in my dreams I sometimes end up in. One is a mall that doesn't exist. I'm usually there with my family, we'll walk around then go to the theater. When I'm there alone the mall will be taller and thinner than usual. The other place is a beach house/cabin thing with an assortment of people from my life. Not sure what to make of those. One nightmare I had as a kid: I was on my then-church's lawn with my family. We were just talking. Then there's a tornado. I don't see it because I'm facing away from it, but I sense that it's there. It starts to lift me off of the ground, and I start calling for help from my family but they just stand there, looking ahead, not saying anything. I woke up when I was starting to be turned away from them. Also, not a dream, but a few years ago I started seeing horror imagery on the brink of sleep. Freaked me out at first but I got so used to it that I began to associate horror with peace. Doesn't happen as much now but that was weird. Anyway, safe travels, Gobbo. We're rooting for you.
Jack
2024-02-27 08:09:46 +0000 UTC
