Diary of a Demon Dog #16
Added 2024-08-05 15:14:15 +0000 UTCA friend of mine had me take mushrooms, the hallucination type, as he drove me through the mountains. It really helped me discover myself and remember who I am and what I need to do. I'll definitely be doing more of this delightful therapy and when he is ready, will be sending more of you all his way to give it a try as well. It has helped me make great strides in my divorce and knowing where I was culpable and where he was in the wrong. Anyone who thinks they always did everything perfectly in a relationship that is falling apart is completely delusional. It takes two to tango. Nobody up and leaves the "perfect person" for no fucking reason. I know I'm not perfect. Oh gods do I know I'm not. This trip has helped put it all into better perspective and help me realize how young and foolish I was and still am in many regards. I wasn't ready for any of this and neither was he, regardless of what our young arrogant brains thought at the time. So I tossed and olive branch and got a fuck off forever. Fair. I was the best and worst thing that has ever happened to him. I can't honestly say the feeling is mutual but I can understand him not wanting anything to do with me anymore. Which probably makes things extra confusing for him given he insisted in taking a bunch of my ideas and one of my games and also he is making a game based on my characters and universe which he never actually understood so he is in a viscous hell of his own design. Really wonder where he's gonna go from here though I release myself of him and hopefully he can cleanse himself of me too. He'll be healthier for it.
Love,
Nera
