Getting A Lot Off My Chest
Added 2025-05-22 23:20:15 +0000 UTCI just pushed record and spoke.
I love you all so much!
Alex
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Aww my nans birthday was the 16th, we lost her in 2017 but i drive her car so shes never left me lol. Im building my first pc and so far, mama's list 😭✊🏽✨️ youve been one of many constants in my life recently and truly love hearing your input on things and your goofy is refreshing as a goof myself. Even thou i dont like being on camera i want to make content of my own, so i keep pushen, ive even done some recording already. Love you bro, stay frosty and always remember to look both ways before you turn✨️🫂
Faithfull Kadan
2025-05-27 12:54:22 +0000 UTCi am bipolar II which is hypomanic. i spend most of the time below the line. often i am in a mixed state which is manic on top of depression and it is awful. depression affects you mentally, emotionly and physically. in dec. i went manic. i just get super motivated and/or loss the ability to focus and concentrate. come jan. it was over and i've been in a depression ever since. each time my mood flips i go into a deeper depression. physics rule the world. sun comes up, sun goes down. tide goes out tide comes in, what goes up must come down. the bipolar has ruined every significant relationship in my life. it leaves me with no life. just an existence. i move thru life but am not part of life. i literally have to force myself to do activities of daily living like showering, dishes, putting something away physically hurts and i don't feel any sense of accomplishment. i have no idea what i am passionate about. the only thing i am excited about is the release in 1 year of grogu and the mandalorian. (Great show alex.). on june 16, 2018 i attempted suicide. i have never once called myself a suicide survivor. i still don't know if it's a good thing i survived. i could go on and on. simply, no one asked me if i wanted to be a human living on earth. had they, i'd have said no. i should have been a drain baby. hell isn't fire and brimstone, devil and torture. hell is an abyss without sensation or end. i have lived most of my life in the abyss. franz nietzsche says if you stare into the abyss, the abyss stares back. he also says, regarding padora's box, that hope is the worst of all evils for it prolongs the torture of man. i despise the word hope and actively avoid it. i replace it with i have faith, with belief. this is not the reality i signed up for, but nothing changes if nothing changes. of this i believe
Lesa Ahrenstein
2025-05-25 09:54:28 +0000 UTCMy life has been kind of rough. i’ve lived a long life experienced a lot of things that I didn’t think I’d ever experience. Had kids got married got divorce divorced watched friends die had other friends vanish from my life. Now I sit here alone in a small house on a large plot of land I don’t really have any close friends anymore, and I only see my kids once a year part of the depression of being alone like this is the inability to force yourself to get up and do the things you wanna do I would like to be able to write a book or make an interesting video or have a fun conversation with a group of people too nervous to talk to people and I don’t like the idea of putting my work out for people to read I don’t even like putting my art out anymore. It’s been years since I’ve worked in my blacksmith shop. I did start melting metal but I have no real idea what to do with the bricks of metal that I make. I had a plan to work copper into something, but I just never really got around to figuring out how or what I wanted to make silver I’ve been collecting that quite a bit lately, but even silver I don’t really have any idea of what I’m doing with it. I was thinking about making some coins. I don’t know. I spend most of my money collecting things, but none of it really ever makes me happy. I bought a bunch of guns old wet guns cause I’m into the old West. I bought a bunch of swords cause I’m in the medieval swords about tons of pony stuff pony statues, pony, figurines, pony cards, pony books quite obsessed with ponies but now there’s no pony conventions going on anymore at least in my area so once again I’m alone
Daisy Azuras
2025-05-24 04:48:21 +0000 UTCPeople who talk shit about addicts haven't struggled hard enough in their life to understand
Myles
2025-05-24 03:08:52 +0000 UTCOne thing I can recommend to anyone to better your mental heath is to start a garden if your able. I did this year and not only are flowers pretty and fresh veggies delicious, it gives you such a sense of accomplishment. I always thought I'd suck so I never tried. Everyday now I sit in my garden with my coffee and watch my duck and cats play and listen to the birds. It's so peaceful and clears your head for the day.
Melody Netherton
2025-05-23 18:04:00 +0000 UTCSup, answering your question have weird shit with like no emotions? Like i do have them but it need to be swung manually by me. I just fear to too cold of a person not being able to feel same happiness for my friends doing cool shit, i tell them im happy for them and its the truth i just don’t feel it if it makes sense. srry to blab
Eli
2025-05-23 15:59:12 +0000 UTCFirst of all, LOVE the hat. Wear it more often. lol Second, I really enjoyed this video. It was very relatable, insightful, and endearing. Sometimes the best way to get things out is to word-vomit everything that needs to be said. I do mine via writing, personally. I related to this one a lot.
Shannon -
2025-05-23 14:07:38 +0000 UTCHunter S Thompson vibes with the hat
Troymk1
2025-05-23 13:38:14 +0000 UTCPeople talk shit about addicts but I've lost so many friends who were great people who became addicted to drugs because doctors. They were good people who unfortunately lost their lives and left so many to deal with their loss. Hate the drug, not the addict
Matthew O'Brien
2025-05-23 12:28:28 +0000 UTCHey Alex. Yeah, the ones we love are gonna die at some point, but so will you and I as well. It’s the vicious circle of life, one we have little to no say in. That’s why I feel the need to travel and see the world and do memorable things with the people I love and respect. I want to be able to look back on my life and say I’ve truly tried to make the most of it. Thats why I always try and treat others with respect and understanding, because you never know what they are going through in their life, and you could be that one person who just supports them for that one second that could really change their entire life. You can’t change the whole world, but if you do your part in making it less shitty for the rest and lead by example, well then we can leave this world slightly better than before.
Alexey Bocharnikov
2025-05-23 11:17:52 +0000 UTCRoughly translated I'm gonna be doing "dual studies", meaning 6 months uni learning theory and 6 months at a company applying the theory (and after work still learning some more theory and preparing for tests), and that concept for 3 years. If I make it, I'll already automatically have a good job after uni but apparently dual studies is incredibly difficult and mentally draining. The thing is I've never really been proud of anything I've accomplished or anything about me in general, I'm not good looking, have never been in a relationship, have never good at sports, been poor for most of my life and in general just kind of an outsider and I guess I just wanna feel like I'm not a complete failure for once in my life. Your videos always manage to cheer me up and make me forget about the huge fuckup that is me and my life
Luca Storminger
2025-05-23 10:06:15 +0000 UTCCurrently between high school and university and in 4 months I'll have to move out and leave pretty much everyone I know behind. Technically it's not far, like 2 hours by car but it's still scary, I constantly have this fear in the back of my head that I will somehow fuck this up after investing so much time and energy into getting accepted at this university. I've also never been a confident person, the last time I didn't know *anyone* was in 2nd grade, 13 years ago, I have no idea how I'm gonna have any kind of social life there. Crazy how it feels like life just keeps throwing shit at you, even after finishing high school
Luca Storminger
2025-05-23 09:52:23 +0000 UTC
