9/5/25

Hallo everynyan!

Here are some stuff I painted for the past week, i'm not rly happy with any of these tbh i was too focused on doing prep for season 4 so everytime im painting im just like "man i should rly be working on season 4 rn" 😭😭😭 but im doing it in such a slow pace that its making me so ashamed of myself like i fucking fell off .. But i still hope the doodles are enough this time around.

I'm going to a funeral this weekend and i'll be on a plane for like 20 hours straight and on top of dealing with that im also so scared guys i fucking hate leaving the house or getting in a car or any type of transportation here i feel like most planes are safe but knowing how shit my luck is the one im on is gonna crash and explode i just know it, and i feel this anxiety everytime i get in a plane 😭 it used to not be this bad before but after that orange fuck got elected and that first week he was in office there was a plane crash EVERYDAY (esp the blackhawk crash near the potomac earlier this year) and i was just like ok.. guess ill just fucking die idk, but ill bring my ipad on the plane w me and hopefully i can draw some stuff so i'm not just wasting time sitting in a death trap praying 😭i know its an irrational fear but that one in a million chance is gonna happen one of these days i just dont know when.. sorry for oversharing again.

I haven't been that inspired to paint lately bc as i mentioned any waking moment i spend not working on cherry crush is a waste of time even when i sleep i feel like im wasting my time not doing more cherry crush stuff, i really dont wanna repeat the mistake of season 3 finale again bc that was honestly the worst thing ever bc i was just so unprepared on top of almost dying so i'm really trying to overcompensate, i hope i never go through that again and i hateeeeeee delaying things or go off schedule it makes me feel sick 😭 i just have to do a lot of prep and i'll be okay.. surely <-clueless

I'll do some patreon requests on the trip so when I'm back I can immediately post an art update and i won't repeat the mistake last month where i only posted twice in 10 days again, like that was actually embarrassing.. i feel really bad about scamming even if you guys say its not scamming it is to me😭, i really really hope everyone ignore my incessant rambling and complaining pls dont feel like you have to comfort me okay its really not your responsibility and i feel bad when people do comfort me bc im just burdening ppl with my issues again, i really just wanted a quick rant and then post yaois.. pls enjoy my yaois, dont mind my complaining i promise i'll be okay (unless my plane explodes midair this weekend but yeah)

Anyways that's all for the yap today..! I won't post again until next week but I'll try to keep everyone updated, thank you so much for your support as always, have a good day everynyan I lav you!