When you need a break...

Hey all,

A note to say that some of you have been here since the very beginning and others have just recently joined. I *know* my sessions can be a hodge podge and I want to say it is YOUR job to accept that. Ha.  It's also your job to not adopt the habit of self-imposed unwarranted guilt. This is fun.. and should remain a source of pleasure.

Seriously, I do not expect you to know exactly what order to go in or to listen to Every Single One. There will be sessions that are not really what you like and that's fine.  If we had a group get-together there'd be people wanting the dress-up room, others wanting their tasks inspected, the foot fetish gang, and so ons..

There will be times when your everyday life needs more of your focus, which is also alright. I've put off personal files for folks when they've been too swamped to consider it, shared background music for people who needed a word break, etc. What I'm saying is this, I'm not going to forget you or judge you. I *know* I should probably be crazy demanding or whatever other persona seems right. But I'd rather keep you around and I'd rather you know how to keep a balance.

Now, I am keeping the patron level at a max of 50 for a while. So ... I don't actually recommend that you leave. But for goodness sake, do NOT get into a FOMO kind of thought process where our fun together becomes a source of stress. Just jump back in when time allows.

I do a similar thing. Many of you that write to me often will get batch replies (usually going backward..). It is because I don't want to burn out on SbE. I would miss all of you. Lots. So I do the thing that needs doing.. and sometimes it means I have time to read, yet not give a thoughtful reply. I have yet to deal with any of you being grumps about it. So don't assume that I somehow think you are less if you're sending me a note about a session done last month or you missed out on a puzzle when it was released.

Certain sessions hit a LOT of views and the podcast also seems to go through spikes as it is picked up, etc. I think there have been a half dozen new folks joining in this month (I'm truly terrible at keeping track of those numbers, I just set the max and ignore it). You're not behind. You may find that a session you listen to resonates with you in a *completely* different way the second or third time you hear it because you've also heard a trigger for it. I do try to say when there are prequels....

.... but I also think there's a joy in whimsical discovery. If that frustrates you -- meditate on the mountain a while. This isn't a job interview. There is no formal exam lurking ahead. I may tease you, but I will never purposefully injure your soul or emotional self. This is a very, very safe way to get a taste of erotic hypnosis *and* an everyday life kind of Mistress.

Now.. for those of you who *have* sent me specific goals, I do expect you do them. Some related to our relationship, but often it is a personal or professional life thing. Keeping those lives in order means you have more mental and emotional energy for the SbE play. Also realise sometimes you don't achieve a certain habit or thing because it just isn't time for it. If you're a farmer in the middle of planting season, you're not going to commit to being the bass player for a travelling cover band. You wouldn't even commit to learning a new instrument or song. So if you've set goals and you're repeatedly not hitting them, perhaps they don't mean enough to you (or someone important to you) at this stage.  Life is strange right now for many of us. Things we had planned for our spring/summer got derailed. In my normal life, I'd be VERY unlikely to stay up til 3am on a Monday like I did.. but it was just so incredibly good to have that time with people that I adore.

I've been behind on messages recently due to getting a few systems in order. I've spent quite a bit of time with Pita adjusting the recording/editing to make his life easier. (His industry is picking up again but in a way it won't impact his SbE editing/producing - tho I do have someone on standby if Pita needs downtime).

I don't see all of my friends daily, yet we are still friends.

I have play partners I may see only a few times a year, yet we are still close.

I'd rather you keep a balance in your life, including giving more focus to areas that may need it at certain times.. compared to simply feeling like you've fallen behind, out of touch, or whatever other self-imposed guilt you choose because it just builds a wall between us.

I started this project back in May and wanted to put out a variety of content to get an idea of what would resonate with others. I definitely wanted to "race my race" while doing it and treat it like I do my private D/s style relationships. While my romantic relationships don't drop "the dynamic" completely, I do have lots and lots of times when it isn't the focus at all and we're just everyday people enjoy each other. I didn't sit around last night in latex opera gloves (I do love those) and a LBD.  I had on a faded t-shirt and my absolute favourite (yet on their last legs) leggings.

So this dynamic of you investing time/energy into SbE may sometimes need to be on the shelf as well. Don't fret over it.

I'm not going anywhere...

Much love,

Elswyth

Now.. be a dear and imagine kissing each of my fingertips on my left hand, the palm, the top of the hand, the wrist (careful now, my charm bracelet is there).. up my arm (hope you're not allergic to wool..).. hollow of the collarbone, side of my neck and tip of my earlobe. Isn't it nice to know how to kiss me?