Old paper work : Exhibit 4
Added 2020-10-25 03:24:14 +0000 UTCDrawn in 2017, not too long after the exhibit 3.
Now I remember something... Quite funny how I can remember after I have faced the hololive phenomenon. My very own past, quite a long time ago, used to be very bright. That shy, timid, handsome boy who eagers to learn about the world around him even he can't really well. I have done so many mistakes, so many unforgivable action, all just for stupid pride and arrogant.
Well, maybe because I felt guilty for my childrish behavior and error in the past, my young self started to turn away from society and family. I barely talked or interacted to anyone. People try to help, but I turn them away. I don't know if I was prideful or just overwhelm with guilt. I don't know any thing back there.
Just to clarified how isolated I am back there; not even bullies are trying to bully me because of my hermit lifestyle. Most of the time when people interacted negatively to me are all because I was being a sh*tty person rather than being bullied.
I probably wanted to have friend, but I'm too prideful for that, maybe? I used to have qutie a good talk with one brilliant mind at my age once. Too bad we have never met each other again.
Isolated, abandoned, and confused, but still I eagered to learn about the world around me. I've read lots of philosophy and history. I have never truely understood them even until now, but I'm still learning them to this day. I want to understand the universe. I want to know everything.
From that day what that is left from an eager young man is a creepy old man who drawing anime girls for living and all dead inside.
Well, I don't feel sad anyway. I just don't care anymore.
