Putting The G(race) Back Into TGIF!

Greetings, Patrons! Grace here, trying to get back into something I've been meaning to do for a while over in these parts...some more regular weekly postings! You read that right! I'd like to attempt to get on here on Fridays and gently offer you some random musings in the form of a weekly good 'ol fashioned blog/newsletter-esque type post. 

What do I want to talk about? That part hasn't really been figured out so much. These aim to be a bit of a stream of consciousness ramble with some potential random insights, perhaps some semi-ridiculous stories or topics that didn't make the weekly pod, maybe some quacking about certain reality television programming, and possibly even some more intimate introspection...who really knows!? I, being the author of these shenanigans, probably should. But I don't! Weee! Of course, I welcome you to engage in the conversation and don't hesitate to let me know about any big burning topics or little room temperature things you'd love to discuss! 

So, let's stop stalling and start talking about ...stalling. Yep, the first thing that I wanted to ponder was the idea of stalling. Otherwise, procrastinating, putzing, putting off, deliberately delaying, walking yourself into the wet cement of your thoughts and watching as it dries. That itchy urgency to overthink yourself into a cesspool of ceaseless stuck. I've been in a sticky relationship with overthinking for as long as I can remember. And more recently, in my new post post-graduate school world, it presents itself again as a challenge. I have a lot more freedom to get back in the creativity game. But, the urge to throw myself a creative football often gets intercepted by an overthinking opponent that runs the ball back the other way before doing a touchdown dance that's mostly finger pointing at me and telling me 'no way, grace-ay'. (my brain might still be thinking in sports metaphors from watching Varsity Blues). Anyone else have those moments?

I often wrestle with an overly demanding sense of preciousness about making great/perfect/incredible/impactful things. I sort of touched on this a while ago when I asked you all about your relationships with journaling. But, now, I'm just kinda tired from doing nothing. My overthinkers out there now how exhausting it is constantly talking yourself into and quickly out of things, amiright? Eesh. Don't forget to stay hydrated, my fellow over analyzing athletes.  

But that's why I wanted to get back to posting over here. This might effectively become my way of journaling lol. I so enjoy the sweet community in this little trash corner of burning garbage compound of the internet and wanted a safe space to get back to putting some nonsense out there. So thanks in advance for being here and helping to hold this safe, weird lil space. It gives me a real reason and motivation to get my raccoon brain out of the trash and into the muck. 

I think that's also why I have such an obsession with reality competition programing. I love watching people doing things. Or making things. Just putting themselves out there and trying. I don't want to necessarily say I've lost my creative courage over the years, but I've definitely been letting it rest. Which, according to therapy based investigations, is a good thing! But now I'd like to sweetly lure the beast from its hibernation and let it play. Speaking of sweetly luring beasts and reality competition programs, I haven't watched today's newest episode of The Great British Bake Off Baking Show For Baking Both Off And For Show but I was veeeeeerrrry surprised by who got kicked off before the finals! Plz no spoilers and before I accidentally spoil anything for anyone who isn't caught up let's put a pin in that topic and maybe we'll talk more on that next week! 

Well, I think that might be all for today's ramblings. It feels nice to dip my toe back into some online mumbling! There isn't necessarily a succinct take away from this mental stroll in the overgrown mind meadow, but I hope you enjoyed the walk. 

Oh! Maybe here's something to inspire you. If you feel frustrated because your creativity has been playing dead, know that sometimes playing dead can lead to creative opportunities... 

By that I mean probably only specifically for this guy, Josh. Per the article: 

"Kentucky man Josh Nalley managed it as day after day he posted videos to his TikTok account @living_dead_josh of him pretending to be dead in the hopes that a show would cast him as a corpse in one of their episodes.

After 321 painstaking days of pretending to be dead, he got his wish as CSI: Vegas got in touch after noticing the viral star and offered him the chance to play a dead body in one of their episodes."

May Living Dead Josh continue to inspire us all! Thanks for being here! Enjoy your weekends!  ❤️G