lyrics (comment lyrics i've never shared!! so i can share them.. gonna try to be more open about lyrics)

there are so many songs whose lyrics i never share for no reason other than me having a hard time overexposing things that are so direct like that.. but i want to do better about it because i really like the lyrics i write to the same level as the rest of the music i make and i find it to be a shame that no one ever gets to appreciate them.. anyway here are some lyrics of songs that i never shared (if there are lyrics for things that i never shared here, please comment and maybe ill share them). i want to be more organized about it

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life - may 12th:

….and that’s how it happens. unexpectedly from the other side of a twilight room. chilly spring caresses our naked skin to the pulse of burning sounds. maybe you saw on some part of my face and I saw on yours at the riverside. standing nervously at the edge of something so beautiful. trembling hands towards the first kiss. crying burning stars in our eyes at the resonant sounds on the dashboard. the sounds that somehow led me to you. serenade. just the start. of innumerable thoughts and imagination. nerve endings have perfect memory. how could we forget?

life - stars

stars in your eyes. stars on your skin. one big star in your chest. innumerable little stars shifting in the tears. my trembling eyes. kiss your eyelids. dream of me. sleep in my arms. fit right in. fit right in. i already learned the patterns in your heartbeat. i already learned the constellations on your hands. i already fell in love with you

life - one of many

i’m thinking about you so much all the time. i miss you so much. you do something so strongly to me. i feel so much. i miss you so much. i never stop thinking about you. you’re so warm and magical. so sweet and magnetic. i think so much about the words on your lips i’m desperate to hear. i’m desperate to say them. i’m desperate to hold your hand. i’m desperate to tell you. do you think about me too? please say yes. please hold my hand. please like me back. i miss you every second. you make me feel like the first spring twilight. so many years ago. a long lost touch. and long lost colors. you’ve woven for me to wear on my wrist. i hope you feel how it pulses. like the glistening stars over our memories as they carve forever in our surroundings. two worlds in one space. settling their frantic outbursts in perfect balance

life - allusion to summer distance

i hope you hear the sound. I hope you hear the sound its color. I hope you hear the sound today and tomorrow, shimmering in the same key as the stars in your skin. I hope every week you come back to thursday twilight, running, we find ourselves running around to hidden corners and bathing in the light of exploding stars. I can see the pulse on your wrist from a mile away as you lift your hands towards the streetlight. we run towards and forget what it means to run, what it means to touch the ground. the sound is deafened by soft distant dreaming. watching your shoes hit the ground every step and hearing only the soft streams. i hope you hear the language. i hope you hear the color. i hope you hear your name. i hope you hear my desperate heart crying

life - i haven't said it enough (also the same lyrics as "orange sunset in your name"

part of me wishes I could find better words. something more poetic and well written. something that could do it justice. my heart is beating impatiently. I’ve forgotten almost all the words I knew. I’m stuttering over something I didn’t know how to say in the first place. I feel so much for you. I say it a thousand times and I still feel like I’m saying it for the first. I still feel like there’s more to say. I haven’t said it yet. I haven’t said it enough. it didn’t sound perfect enough. it’s still stuck in my chest. waiting trembling on perfect words that fall into place. soft touches that sound like coalescence. that feel like unawareness in time. forgetting to remember what day it is, what year it is, or how old we are. finding any way just to hold your hands for one more moment. knowing all the places we’ve been by the angle the sun glistens on the summer earth and it’s just like the flutter in your eyes as your smile lifts my pulse towards clouds. seeing the clouds turn pink reminding me of the blush on your face when we first kissed. when our ankles get soaked in puddles of warm rain and it doesn’t matter. the room is cold but it’s fine. it’s scorching hot outside but it’s fine. there’s dirt on our legs but it’s fine. our hair is soaked but it’s fine. my smile is silly and my laugh is silly but it’s fine. your smile makes everything fine. your smile makes everything perfect. i wouldn’t change anything about the way you kiss me and hold me and touch me. i wouldn’t change anything about what the weather’s like when we see eachother. when the hours last forever and the color in the sky still changes, shifting around a perfect cycle as perfectly woven as overgrown vegetation around a time and place. i watch you find words and make them even more beautiful. when we make collages at a table in a place i’ve never been. two places I’ve never been. two places and two bodies, two voices coalescing, two stuttered sentences that fit like two hands. two lanes on a road between you and me lit by two distant orange lights. two hugging colors in the same song. two brand new meanings in the word “sunset”. two times we saw the sun rest and you haven’t left my mind yet. when our glimpses lock on the same sight and maybe you say it first or I do. sometimes you beat me to it sometimes i beat you to it. sometimes you let me stare into your eyes and sometimes you turn away coyly. sometimes I wait anxiously for the next thing you say to me and sometimes my heart skips a beat when I see your name. sometimes I know what to say and sometimes all I can do is gaze at you. maybe you read my quivering lips. I think about you all the time. sometimes I think I said the right words, sometimes seconds pass one after the other. I wear your bracelet on my wrist all the time. I hear you in every song. you’re in all the songs I have yet to sing. I like you so much. I wish I could say the words just right. I wish I could hug you. I hope you think of me too

life - fire you set

scream for love. i want to hear the want in your voice. i want to hear the red twilight folding. i want to hear the snow melt on your eyelashes. two fires cross paths. unexpectedly. a star is born. a star in a field of adolescent flowers. excitement is spelled on your skin. obsession is the taste on your tongue. hold me with fire. just do it. just do it

life - J

holding hands on the sidewalk. under orange starlight. watching your eyes shimmer and pulse. and your skin softly illuminated. somehow as this is the same color i’ve felt in my chest for so long. we hold eachother forever in this tiny moment. and this tiny place. and in our tiny hands

life - empty street orange light

your gorgeous hands on my throat, gentle touch. midnight red lifts into orange. as soft as them somewhere far away. just so far away. as far away as a time and place so many years ago. an image of ourselves somehow holding hands. and orange light fluttering on midnight summer. soft orange light on a soft night weighing softly as heavy as everything. the first time i heard you in a distant song. our hands slip into autumn. and rest in the field. holding hands locking eyes. keeping warm. now i'm waiting for the sun to set. to watch your eyes light up like fireflies. to watch the distant fire right in front of me. maybe someday i'll tell you just how much

life - you feel like the pink sounds that make me cry

you feel like the first days of summer softly approaching. and rising with the sun one unexpected humid morning. overflowing color. overflowing pulses escaping my chest. somehow discovering for the first time what it smells like. humid summer colored by you. you feel like orange lights floating over empty streets. and our hands glowing hands intertwining. you feel like the pink sounds that make me cry. you feel like perfect memories how could I ever forget