sadness - glistening in the march lowsun

UPDATE: remastered in june 2025


Sunday, June 4, 2023 at 4:36 PM

i had this instrumental for a while without knowing what i wanted to write the song about, besides obvious impulsive themes, such as the tonality (fminor) being prime lowsun and sunset colors and the overall feeling of something romantic and pure. then one day I revisted my childhood videos (my mom spent many many years video documenting everything so i have a lot of digitalized tape recordings to this day that i watch every now and then) and while watching them i felt a huge wave of nostalgia about the first house (that I remember) living in, from age 4 until age 8 , in this connnecticut town called westport . I make a reference to this place too in my song "i knew somewhere". this song is about connecting the pieces of that memory with the hand i always wish i held. i imagined standing on that "tiny strip" (which im referring to the street i lived on, which was on an isolated dead end street) but when i was so small and young it felt like within a one mile radius was the entire expanse of what i could even conceive of being the outside world. my sense of scale of that town i lived in when iwas that age made me feel like this place was infintely explorable.  there are innumerable beauties i could meander about from that place and my childhood and i could never truly speak of them all. every time i make a song like this i try to just claspe a little piece of the ineffable beauty that permeated every fiber of my being  during specific moments of my past. when in the lyrics i say "we live in a beautiful world", im not only reffering to the fact that the world is beautiful, but this is a line in a coldplay song called "dont panic" that was released in 2002. in 2002 i was 5 and that CD was often playing in my house, and that song was the most remarkable and permanently etched a core memory into me. that song carries so much nostalgia for me i cant even explain it. if i so much as think of that song i am immedeately transported to my early childhood. it's truly maggical. in the song they say " we live in a beautiful world", i dont know the context they say it in nor do i care, but those words are interpolated in this song to make refference to that nostalgic point. as if to collect all the magic held in this moment of my life, but if i could just hold it all in one place, on that tiny strip in westport CT in march of 2003, glistening in the lowsun
this is what it would sound like

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we live in a beautiful world

beautiful world

where the sun hangs over spring evening

where the sun hangs over our home

where nothing is impure

where smiles stretch to the edges of our faces

our sight stretches to the edge of the world

such a big world

and it is all right here

on a tiny strip

holding hands

glistening in the march lowsun