sadness - midnight june room

Monday, January 23, 2023 at 8:52 PM. if you're in the discord (someone comment the link) you'll have seen me be very excited about a song that to me sounds like another "I can't say goodbye". it's this one. before february 8th I had recorded the super epic chorus in the middle (at around 11:11) from february 8-19 I was gone so I couldn't record anything but while I was away I came up with the rest of the lyrisc and melodies in my head. I just finished recording the vocals tonight (also my cousin nila sings with me on most of the choruses) this song is more deeply personal than anything I've ever talked about on my patreon but I'll give an explanation that doesn't expose too much. in june 2011 there was a little room that I spent a lot of time in and had literally some of the most intense emotional experiences in my whole life. this song in a way talks about that, and eludes to that at the climax at the end , as though when closing my eyes I'm somewhere in the emotional stars burning beyond my body and when I open my eyes I find that somehow, I am just in a little room. everything else are things I won't elaborate on. this is going on the same split as my recent track "shimmer"

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touching the lunar stars on your skin
laying together sharing the sounds
wading the lunar stars on your skin
burning like the midnight in our june room, yeah
touching the lunar stars on your skin
you don’t know how they light up in me

maybe someday I will tell you just how much
maybe someday you'll be just a mile away
maybe someday I will tell you just how much
maybe some day you'll be just a mile away

something about how two little places
that in their way are so big
orange in green and pink in orange
in you, just like you
about how they touch each other a mile away
a little distance
i feel like you could hear me shouting your name from on top of my roof
but there is something in my throat
so maybe i'll just walk
you're only a mile away anyway

holding two to adore
holding you, nothing more
like in our room midnight june memory
holding two orange flames
holding you just the same
and maybe someday i'll tell you
maybe someday
someday

touching midnight collections of pretty stars they
feel just like when I first saw you around the april twilight
I held a star in my hand, I didn’t know at the time

touching midnight encircles of pretty little lights they
feel just like when I first saw you around the april twilight
I held a star in my hand, I didn’t know at the time
but it was a piece of you and me all along

summer night lets meet eachother at orange streetlights, they’ll never find us
I swear, we could run away forever chasing our hands like fireflies in the night
yet when the sun barely rises and we’re laying in eachother’s arms covered in mayflowers we’ve come so far
we’ve come so far and the journey’s only just begun

touching the lunar stars on your skin
you don't know how much they light up in me
laying together sharing the sounds
i feel like my words are a mile away
wading the lunar stars on your skin
collecting them in my eyes
burning like the midnight stars in our june room
maybe someday i will tell you, yeah

maybe someday i will tell you just how much
maybe someday you'll be just a mile away
maybe someday i will
maybe someday i'll
baby maybe someday
maybe someday
baby maybe someday