sadness - please... (and also talking about previous song)

these two songs are going on my split with abriction, let's talk about please first

I started recording the guitars on Monday, December 6, 2021 at 6:23 PM, that's when I recorded everything up until that clean part. everytyhing else I finished sometime in 2022 . the keyboard intro was something I recorded in september 2021 (I believe september 18). it was an improv I played at my cousin's house one day as I was missing my gf, but I cut it down to make it the intro to this song (the original was like 7 minutes). I had actually recorded a bunch of improvs that day. lyrics:

"little momentspores catching in the lovesounds twirling and chiming, springflower heartbeats pulsing in riverthreads
we travel along
along and along
the sides of greenburst
the unaware memory
in perfect touch with the warmth of the date

floating along a deep bedfield
as blue as your unanswers
the melting moment in your eyes
and in some perfect way, holding the pieces of myself
as closely as the touches in my dreams

and every pure moment
please touch me again …

falling into my deep memory
just how much i miss
how numbers seemed to stay with me forever
and how to touch the words dancing in your eyes
tingled something in me

please touch me again …
falling into my deep memory
of turning spring flowers into my lovesongs
just how much i miss
how numbers seemed to

just how much i miss
how numbers seemed to stay with me forever
and how to touch the words dancing in your eyes
tingled something in me

just how much i miss
how numbers seemed to stay with me forever
and how to touch the words dancing in your eyes
and every pure momentplease touch me again
again

just how much i miss
how numbers seemed to stay with me forever
and how to touch the words dancing in your eyes
and every pure moment
please touch me again …"


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"something in the summer rain" I started that song on Friday, September 2, 2022 at 7:49 PM and finished the instrumental that night. what took forever were the vocals even though I had the lyrics shortly after making the music. It took recording more and more layers of the vocals until I was satisfied.

"something in the summer rain
reminds me that im dreaming within you
something in the summer rain makes this moment last forever,
something in the summer rain is shining  perfect numbers and colors
pinks and greens
the colors just like first encounters
spring stories and
running motionless in time

standing in the rain
she's electric
i feel it dampen my eyes

i want to make out
the form of some forgotten place
of some forgotten pink memory
it feels like floating
like dreaming the light shine on your skin
the numbers in your eyes as your hair sways softly in the summer breeze

i want to make out
the form of some forgotten place
of some forgotten pink memory
it feels like floating
like dreaming the light shine on your skin
the numbers in your eyes
the lowsun shining through
TAKE ME WITH YOU"

I can proably do a deep dive into these songs and talk about their meaning another time but I really don't feel like doing that right now. also my cousin nila helped me sing some of the choruses