damianojeda

sadness - 2010 flowers

Added 2022-11-06 22:59:08 +0000 UTC

you might notice this song sounds like it belongs on atna and that's because the acoustic guitar was recorded in 2018 (around the same time as daydreaming and hope you never forget). I forgot about this completely until I was looking through all my files for the unused music compilation. https://damianantonojeda.bandcamp.com/track/gminor-sadness-december-21-2018-2. this song has nothing to do with anything it would have been about if i had continued it back then. I had the idea to finish this song in this way for a while (a couple of months) while I was on my trip and before, with the vocal melody idea and then recently I've been thinking a lot about what the song is actually about and I knew I want to make several songs about it and I knew I wanted this song to be about that (maybe). I started writing these lyrics today at around 12

all of the moments I never knew
just how much they’d mean
like slowly falling sun on october love
brimming warm colors

all of the moments I never knew
just how much they’d mean to me
like slowly falling sun on october love
brimming warm colors

and I can only remember how good it felt to
know nothing at all
and to hold a single moment in my tiny hands
in the largest way

holding me too

I'm a very nostalgic person and for whatever reason lately I've been thinking alot about the way I felt in the second half of 2010 (normally I'm thinking a lot about 2011) but I guess I remembered a specific essence of my 2010. whenever I think about these times in my life I tend to imagine having more memories than I already do, I imagine living things, specific moments and days, colored by the way it felt to be in 2010 (or whatever time I'm thinking about). in the way i'm describing in the lyrics it's kind of melancholy and that's probably because the song sounds sad to begin with, but this feeling of missing something does make me feel sad and wistful a lot of the time. I had the idea to make a song called 2010 flowers for a minute now and I'll end up making more songs with this title since I can't capture it well enough with just one song. this song is going to be a part of a split with A Rose Dying in the Rain