damianojeda

sadness - without you here

Added 2022-03-16 16:41:03 +0000 UTC

this is the last song going on the 2015 song compilation. which means that the album is finally done and I'll upload it to spotify, once it reaches spotify I'll release it on bandcamp. whole thing is 12 tracks. it could have been more but all the other songs I was going finish I kind of didn't want to use anymmore. they weren't really worth finishing for this album. I'll still find a way to use them for other things though.
I forgot to check when I started making this, but my memory tells me it was in july 2015. at that time I recorded all the drums, all the guitars (except for those little clean guitar things you hear sometimes), and all the vocal son the first part before it gets distorted. I finished everything else ver the past few days.
all the lyrics were already written, so I just performed from those lyrics, even though in a way they aren't releveant at all anymore because back then I was crying because I wanted to be loved. I titled the track "without you here" because it comes form the lyrics and is also relevant because I feel sad whenebver I'm not with my girlfriend. at somepoint during the vocal performance I gave up reading the lyrics and just started screaming improvised words that are more current and relevant.

unloved, neglected, abandoned…

The pain I feel,, without you here

… so lost and alone… a withered flower of failure…

It kills me inside, every day as the unhealed wounds bleed inside me.. no one to love them… to mend them… to mend me… to mend my broken heart

and each day it gets worse… every second I spend screaming in this cold solitude becomes the agony cutting deeper and deeper into my heart

a heart torn beyond belief…