sadness - blue adorned like a deep april dream

this is going on the "old songs 2015" compilation. for some reason I can't find the original garageband files to see when I recorded this, but it was definitely sometime in april or maybe may of 2015. it's easily recognizable for me by just the way everything sounds, extremely potent springtime of 2015 feelings. this was actually 2 unfinished songs that I merged together from that exact same time (the 3 clean section is where the other song starts). I actually think I made 4 songs that day with this same kind of feeling (these two, "be happy (the intro)" and maybe "untitled IV" and "enshroud" that same day). i don't really remember. but when revisiing old unfinished song ideas I came across these two songs and realized they can easily become one song. I don't think anyone listening to this will have any idea at all what I hear in it. there's something extremely magical about springtime in general but particularly springtime 2015 for me. I decided not to do too much with the song as far s changing the original idea because for one I don't believe in changing original ideas to begin with but also I love the way this is so simple and somewhat amateur. before writing any lyrics I already knew this song sounded blue, and like springtimwe 2015. the actual lyrics don't have anything to do with 2015 but springtime yes, they're actual about a dream. I wrote it down
"blue adorned like a deep april dream, enchanting me with pure heart throbbing obsession, and i yearn towards your beating eyes for love pleasures, twirling my voice and intentions around her perfect body and perfect face. like an eminent flower in the late spring , on a sleeping sunrise against soft tears and  a thick colorful resonance upon everything in this one moment. so small yet so large."
i won't actually go deep into the context as that would be hugely oversharing
I kind of forgot I wrote this for a while (I wrote it sometime last year, maybe around may or something) but I found it in my notes today and today I recorded the vocals (I was looking for lyrics or word ideas that would fit this song and found this). as far as the rest of the album goes, it's almost done. just 3 more songs, maybe 2