sadness - rain chamber

if you know my discography REALLY well you might recognize this song. I made this in august of 2015, but recently I did a little bit of remastering to it and decided to re-release it as a sadness song. the original idea of this song from 2015 is deeply personal. something extremely emotionally impactful happened during that specific month, and I made this immediately after. my general emotional and mental state is directly captured here. I don't know what anyone else listening to this will feel, but this sounds exactly like the dreamlike floating, confused, lost, longing, sad, hypermanic, dissociated, shifting, translucent, burning, so many words that meet no end to describe how i was feeling during this time, even independent of the events that took place. it was just that the specific thing that happened on august 15 2015 lit a whole new spark for a new story. I don't know how I did it but such is the beauty of musical expression. this sounds just like 2015 damian's mind. this sounds like this specific place in my head that I was drifting into and floating in especially when I was 17. this sounds just like how it felt to be disconnected from reality and living constantly in this dreamlike state, yet feeling lost and unimaginably distant from clarity, even though my eyes looked into my inner world so clearly. it's absolutely lucid. the piano in the very beginning is probably the closest I'll ever get to capturing this place in music. somewhere around 2017 maybe (I don't remember at all honestly), I thought about the words "rain chamber". like capturing this similar translucid resonance of rain in a space, defining its space, and this somehow encloses it into its own universe. the idea of separating and detaching rain from reality into a certain "chamber" absolutely set my on fire internally. I knew one day I would have to make a song about this feeling. this song has those similar movements and colors and emotions. the tonality in this song is exactly what I feel with rain, and the general atmosphere feels exactly like that idea of space detachment, like floating in a different dimension. I think of reimagining this song as "rain chamber" for this sadness EP is like emphasizing this aspect of the song, while the original story is lost in the title and album placement, it still lives inherently in the sounds of the music. anyone who doesn't read this will have no direct idea about it, and that feels beautiful. there's an inexplicable fire in this song that can only be listened to, not understood. with this song and "pregarden mayflowers", the "rain chamber" EP is almost done, there's just one last song which only really needs vocals to finish. I plan on doing this today if not in the following days. I'll be leaving the country for three weeks soon so I hope I can get a lot of work done before then, and that might mean that "rain chamber" can be officially released. the included image is the album cover for the EP