sadness - every tuesday, tuesday is green / only hearing the soft streams

this is two songs with a seamless transition at 9:33. whenever this presses on physical format they'll basically be pressed together as one track but for digital and for the purposes of recognizing what song each is, this is two different tracks. both created this year in april (started april 10), when like I talked about previously with "pregarden mayflowers", I had jiust finished moving states and felt new inspiration to start making new music after almost 2 months of feeling discouraged after losing my files in february. this is not the same EP as pregarden mayflowers though, this is an entire full length album which I don't have a name for yet. these two tracks are really the "softer" songs on the album, which is mostly full on sadness style "black metal". I'm very excited about this album. "every tuesday, tuesday is green", "only hearing the soft streams", and "soft running' (part of the  lyrics) are all things i had posted, yet again, on facebook as little thought diaries. I was watching a movie called a silent voice and that's what inspired these ideas. it's about a girl who's deaf and her relationship with a boy she meets at school. these songs aren't ABOUT the movie at all, but sort of what certain little details in the movie made me think and feel. it's hard to really describe in words, but there's something absolutely moving to me when I think about time in certain ways. in many cases thinking about moments. they way moments are placed in the present and in memories. the way moments are identified with names and colors and seasons and patterns. and another thing that's extremely emotionally exiting to me is thinking about routines. patters. cycles. soft little delicate details during moments in life where you have no awareness of them at all or how beautiful they are, they just envelope you, without words and seemingly with no attachment. I thought of this simple idea of "every tuesday". when every week that passes is a new story, and every week that past is a distant memory. this routine of 7 days and the specific time and place and name of "tuesday", it's arbitrary but life just decided to place the routine on tuesday. it could be anything at all, but I really inspired the idea of every tuesday being a definitive moment of encountering, sharing perfect timless moments together when falling into the same place somehow, no awareness of previous direction, no awareness of the future, just the constant motion of life burning new memories. and every tuesday is a new story. every tuesday is green because that is the color association I have the word "tuesday". and in this little story in my head , the tuesday that reencounters has a permeating green feeling, like a vibrant spring, or the new beginnings at the very cusp of early autumn. "only hearing the soft streams" was inspired by the character who's deaf. nothing to it besides just a simple moment where I imagine her suspended in the heart of her feelings, as she lives and breathes, and in her head is soundless. it only feels like the soft streams. like little cascades in a dream. the ambient sounds throughout the songs perfectly capture what these streams sound(or rather feel) like. this song isn't directly connected to the movie or any story at all, it's just a simple, single moment.

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only hearing the soft streams

soft running

every tuesday. tuesday is green