sadness - touch hour on early autumn flying

I think it's no secret anymore that Ser is one of my projects. I never intended to attach my identity to Ser simply because i wanted it to be completely anonymous and mysterious, but even though I never confirmed it online everyone just assumed it was me and now the common knowledge is that Ser is one of my projects. It's fine now because everything that embodies that project is still a complete mystery even to myself. the last recordings I released for Ser were the album that includes "her voice in the rain" which was specifically released ordinally to be the 8th album (in fade of memories the 7th, and elope and forgotten the 7&1/2th [there's an explanation for this...]). the audio file I've attached was supposed to be on the 9th ser album, which just like many things I recorded in that time, I never completely finished. there were a handful of other songs from this album session, some of them useless to me, but a few of them I am also going to "finish" and release them on a bandcamp demo (just like demo 2015) only this one is demo 2014. these were all songs I made in the very beginning of 2014, if not late 2013, although I can't confirm because that information is lost on the garageband files. all the music surrounding this concept (ser) was from 2013 and 2014, but these songs, according to my memory and file information, are from early 2014, which means that Sadness wasn't even an idea at the time.this one in particular says according to the original recordings that It was made in march of 2014, which sounds about right. the last modifications to the song on march 26 to be exact. of course I edited the song in a few ways for the purpose of this sadness release. for one the audio has a slight remaster, but not sacrificing the raw and nostalgic production style from my early music, which arguably sounded absolutely terrible, but I think I managed to make that raw juvenile sound sound more listenable. the final song is also abridged from the original, which had a long winded post-rock type buildup in the middle before the actual loud part towards the end. this was omitted for redundancy. I think the song doesn't need an overdramatic amount of time to get its point across. I renamed the track "Touch hour on early autumn flying", which is something I wrote earlier this year I believe. if you follow me on facebook you'll find that most of my posts are abstract thought streams that I frequently post like a thought diary (not recently of course since I have been away from social media). these words go back many years, and they are no different from anything I'll ever write when I sit down the intention of writing "song lyrics". in principle they are all just words and expression of whatever I happen to be feeling and feeling. every single one of these has an entire world and story, and even song attached to them, so recently I decided I would take these facebook posts and build upon them to capture them into songs and/or song lyrics. this will be a common thing in the near future for the next sadness albums. when I decided to remaster this song I thought that this title fits very well. the original emotion behind the song back when I was 16 was basically meandering on the ineffably remarkable experience which was my autumn 2011. simply put, autumn 2011 for me was an explosion of autumn beauty and feelings that I could never express, not even through music. it completely brought the essence of autumn into a new color for me, and for many years after that I would often think about autumn as if to yearn and long for this tinge of magic that has permeated my dreams ever since then. I can safely recall that this song was written in inspiration of autumnal magic, (now, with a little bit of spring resonance as well maybe), but it's especially given away to me from the tonality and some of the melodies in the song that this is absolutely eluding to autumn 2011. for this affinity for autumn I felt that "touch hour on early autumn flying" was the right title choice (the original song had no title yet, at least beyond a throwaway session name that was just "more malconoyl" [me impatiently typing melancholy]). "touch hour on early autumn flying" means, well, one day I was laying down and daydreaming through that liminal space where you're not asleep, but you've drifted past that veil of being awake, and you're just exploring your mind in a very beautiful and entertaining way. at least that's what I think happened, this might have been a thought I had just otherwise daydreaming... but anyway, I imagined what my childhood early autumn time was like(so late september/early october) living in connecticut. I imagined simply flying over the beautiful landscapes I saw as a child on a sunny autumn day, and this beautiful feeling attached with "touch hour" which I imagined the magical feeling of touch, in a purely blissful and relaxing way, this tactile sensation completely absolute like floating suspended in a dream, you can relate to being massaged or ASMR sensations. I imagined this to be at a certain hour, because to me the routine of something adds a whole enrichment to it. so essentially: being blessed by this gift I receive of being touched and feeling an enriching sensation throughout my being as I'm flying through a dreamscape over the autumn landscapes I hold in nostalgia on a sunny day in the early autumn. there are no vocals becuase 1, I don't want to add to this song 7 years later and 2, I don't know if i ever really intended to include vocals. this adds to my list of old unfinished songs that I feel uncomfortable letting sit unfinished collecting dust. I want to completely clean my slate and finish everything I've ever started. so this feels nice to release.

I think this is the first time I've ever explicitly described the meaning behind a song before. if you have more songs of mind that you would love a deep explanation of the inspiration and story behind, simply comment below and I might just talk about it