Update

This is just an update because I've realized how terrible I am at maintaining a patreon. I'm very sorry for the huge silences and lack of organization, and at the same time I am eternally grateful for the continued support despite my inability to properly manage a (service?) like this, because it is entirely within your wish to donate or not. Something you might not know is that I have a very heavy case of ADHD that I was diagnosed with when I was a child, and although it's more or less explained why I've been able to make so many albums in a short time, it also makes a lot of other things extremely difficult for me, organization being one of them. Patreons have the potential to be brimming with order and a more accessible business mindset (that you will see on actually succesful patreon pages) but doing business has never been easy for me. I did absolutely terribly in school because of it. Anyway this is not for pity but rather to clarify that my poor service has nothing to do with a lack of gratitude or me trying to scam people out of their money or anything like that but rather a real and often times annoying ineptitude of mine to organize and take care of so many different tasks at the same time (that extends into everything I have to do in my day to day life, not just patreon)

anyway that aside, an update on what I've been doing musically. In spring of 2017 I recorded basically all the music for 2 Sadness albums entitled "Rain" and "Circle of veins." The songs "river", "Pure dream", and "absolution" all appear on Rain, and the song "Cerrien" appears on Circle of veins. There are several other songs on both albums but as you can expect, they aren't entirely finished, because despite being able to successfully and quickly create instrumental music, the vocal aspect is what postpones a song or albums finish apparently over an entire year. This is because I don't live alone and I can't just go around screaming whenever I want to, so I can only record vocals at a friend's house (that is if my voice is feeling good that day, as you can probably tell I'm a terrible vocalist and have no stamina or technique) and especially during these winter months my voice has been perpetually sore due to the cold. But any chance I get I try to work on finishing the compositions. There are also 2 other Sadness albums on the way that again are instrumentally basically done but will have to wait. Évval also has a lot of music from 2016 and 2017 but has yet to be fully finished (mainly because I'm keeping finishing the Sadness albums as a higher priority before I move on to finishing the Évval stuff). Left alone... is discontinued after the album "with black branches". I don't think it will be revisited, but who knows.
I also have a project called "Life" which I plan to make my main project after these 4 sadness albums. There 3 Life songs available on my youtube channel right now. I started the project out of my life for 90's emotive hardcore. I have 3 demos for Life that I'm working on. Of course, all instrumentally finished for a while now, just need to track vocals, and live drums. I used to have a drumset at my house from "Fading days away" up until 2016, which is why everything I recorded within august 2014 - january 2016 had live drums. Since I don't have that anymore all the drums I record have to be at a friend's house, so I hope to get around to dedicating a day to tracking the Life songs and maybe some of the Sadness ones. I have other musical projects that I'll talk about some other time, but for now here's an update, and a reminder that my musical career isn't dead. As you might imagine, working on so much music (sometimes more than 10 albums at a time) for almost 6 years can be very overwhelming especially for someone with so much ADHD.( I have music that I never finished from years ago that will probably never be finished) and because of this I haven't really started writing new material for a while now. I have a lot of ideas, but I want to just finish all of the things I'm working on right now before i add anything more to my agenda. I want to start fresh and be able to streamline the process and not have to think about the 20 different albums I'm supposed to be working on. Anyway I think this is a good enough update. let me know if you have any questions I'll try to answer them. Also some people have reported the sadness page disappearing, that's not the case, the URL just changed. Follow: https://www.facebook.com/sadnessmusicofficial