Sunday is for eating

For the past few months I’ve put in a lot of work to gain the weight I have- and I love it! There are times where it truly feels like I’m just eating to grow. Which is hot to think about, but on a long term basis, starts to become harder and harder. The 1300 calorie gainer shake that bloats you becomes a chore, and tracking calories feels like I’m back on disordered eating. The science is there to help me gain weight, but I just don’t always enjoy the process.

So this week I’m letting my self ENJOY gaining. Not tracking, not forcing myself to eat something I don’t want to eat. Just let the calories come to me naturally. This can be challenging, because when I was a twunk I would eat like a bird. But with how much life has changed since then, I know I can at the very lest maintain my weight, if not keep packing on the pounds.

I worked today, which means I was close to quick food options. I started my day running late, but still managed to grab a banana loaf and an iced pumpkin chai from Starbucks. This is a new drink they’re offering along the famous PSL, and I have to say if you haven’t tried it yet… you’re missing out!! It’s absolutely delicious. a grande pumpkin chai with oat milk was around 450 calories, same with the banana bread. I also brought a yogurt from home, topping me off past 1000 calories for breakfast.

For lunch I’m limited to the places I have around work, since I only get 45 minutes. Quick, fast, easy is the key. I walked to a nearby pizza by the slice spot, and grabbed 2 cheese and 1 pepperoni with a large coke. Wasn’t sure the calories on each, but I’d easily say they were about 300 each. Add in that sugary drink, my lunch was well over 1200 calories as well. You can see how gaining becomes so natural for some people if this is how they eat every day.

My coworker did a coffee run and asked if I wanted anything, and I couldn’t pass up a chocolate brownie. Another 450 calories packed in.

Work ended and it was a chaotic day, could not be bothered to cook something when I get home. So I did what every chubby American dad does on his way home from work: pick up McDonalds. Again, we’re eating to enjoy today, not eating to feel miserable, so I got a large 10 piece meal with a Hi-C. For those who‘ve known me for a minute know I would normally get a large strawberry shake to go with this, but the damn ice cream machine was broken :( Absolutely tragic. I did however drink a glass of Oatly oat milk with it when I got home. McDonalds and oat milk brought me to 1400 calories for dinner.

The ice cream itch is still there, so I’ll most likely find myself digging into a pint later this evening. Another 900.

Just letting myself enjoy my day of eating, not hunting down fattening drinks or tracking calories, still brought me to 4k calories before my pint of ice cream tonight. And it didn’t feel like work, much rather the opposite! Will definitely push the gains hard soon, but for now I think eating like this will be good for me mentally and physically 🐷