Blog Post from May 11th, 2021: Work in Progress

The haters will be pleased to hear that I will be working a “real” job.  And fuck you, haters.  You sit there judging women and typing nasty, incorrect grammatical shit to women.  Just because we do not have a normal 9 to 5 job, does not mean we do not work.

So here are my couple of big announcements, one of which you probably already suspected over the past year, and the other you should not be too surprised by.  But I am quitting sex work to work a minimum wage job that will only pay $9.86 an hour.

Now some of you might be wondering why I am quitting being an escort to work for even less pay.  Well, the answer is simple.  I’m tired of dealing with people, so I am going to work with animals.

As I said on my vlog posts on my OnlyFans and AVN Stars, I’m tired of my hard work not being recognized.  It will be six years in August/September that I have been a full-fledged escort and adult performer, and have I reached the popularity status that I thought I would?  Fuck no.

But since I started in the porn industry, I’ve only been hired for about three or four shoots a year.  And, of course, last year with the pandemic, I was not hired at all.  I’ve wrote about my reasons why the industry does not like me, so I will not subject you all to reading those bullshit excuses again, so let me reiterate my stagnant subscriber numbers to my platforms.

I do my research and randomly check how much content other creators are uploading, and I get more frustrated seeing that I have just as much content, if not more, in some cases, than others, and yet my subscribers never increase.  I have only had 340 subscribers at one time for my OnlyFans and that was one month in 2020.  Since then, I’ve only maintained an average of 200-220 subscribers.  So basically, I make about $250 a week from my OnlyFans.  Hardly anyone can survive making that a year, and hence, why I begged for financial help time and time again.

Despite all the time I’ve put in to creating content, beautifying myself for attraction, and the few thousand hours I’ve put into my body over the past four years, I still struggle to find those attracted enough to spend $5 a month, or more, on me.

Knowing how awesome my beautiful resting bitch face is and with my physique, I started my Domme profile on AVN Stars last year.  I charge $6.66 a month and I began my OnlyFans for my GoddessMenhit profile at the beginning of this year.  But despite having over 350+ photos and over 150+ videos on my AVN Stars, I’ve never had more than 5 subscribers on either AVN or OF.  I just do not comprehend how someone with my beauty, fitness dedication, and cute feet cannot gain more of a following.

I’m tired after putting in this work on myself & on my business, and still feeling like failure because I cannot pay rent on time.  I see other performers who started around the same time I did or came after me, and they are so much farther ahead in their success than I am.  And frankly, I am envious and pissed.

I’m tired of seeing the masses remain loyal to those who spout conspiracy theories and look down on me for retweeting NPR.  I’m tired of those who refuse to recognize my dedication to my fitness, but applaud those who do not even squat below parallel.  I’m tired of being undervalued and overlooked.