Well, hell. 'Sphere of discomfort' is such a distinct way to put it- especially when you say you've lost people from this? That's awful. No one should be shamed for this sort of content, not to mention how content creators have to deal with more and more restrictions from these sites on what you can or can't post. That you're continuing to soldier on despite these challenges is nothing short of a sign of strength on your part, but understandable that the challenges outweigh the benefits.