Polaroid I wanted to share
Added 2020-07-14 19:07:57 +0000 UTCThis is a Polaroid I shot that I like more than some others. I like the dark on the sides and then the middle more lit. And, I got the exposure right on it. So, I put it in a little frame (thanks to those who bought me the little kits that had stickers and paper frames in them, fun). Anyway, I like my hand/fingers showing in it, the blue veins in my boob, my nipple, and even my stretch marks. I haven't analyzed my body inch by inch, but the stretch marks on the side of one of my boobs did always bother me seeing it in photos. I would say it was one of the things that used to make me self conscious. I don't know how they got there. I guess in puberty your boobs just grow and you might get stretch marks. lol Anyway, I've done a lot of things over the years to "fix" what I considered wrong with my body, probably because society told me these things were wrong. Got braces. Grew out my hair. Got contacts. Tanned in a tanning bed. Shaved my armpits. Makeup. I mean I am glad I experimented with all of these things to know what's right for me and what's not. But, currently it feels most authentic to be who I am now and love myself, stretch marks, body hair, glasses, and all, as I am. It definitely helped, though, when people would say oh I love your pale skin.... because as I saw it from their perspective.... I loved their skin, too. I never wished someone would change their skin, teeth, contacts, hair. I just thought they were cool as they were. So, if I thought that about them, why wouldn't they think I was cool just as I was, too. Enlightening moment.
