Small Update
Added 2022-12-16 04:42:23 +0000 UTCToday is the first day I've managed to properly start and finish a caption in a day. It kinda took me a lot of the day to actually do it (in pieces) but I did it. It's...obviously been some time since I was able to do that. I'm not sure if I've figured out my medication or not, but...well, let's just see how things go (I've had 'false positives' before, with meds working well-enough for a day, and then not the next day._ I'll try my best to write a caption 5 days a week, and we'll just see if I can do that. I'm hoping I've actually figured out all the problems with the meds, and if that's the case, well then maybe if I'm not at the right med/dose yet, I will be soon. But today went relatively well, all things considered. Sadly, I'm under the impression that the Adderall I started on in the beginning (and was able to do SO much with for 2 months) was a higher dose than the DR should've even prescribed me. So I was essentially 'taking too much' just...with the Dr's permission and prescription. -_- So, I kept trying to 'get back to how it felt being on that dose' (either with adderall or other ADHD meds) (Obviously not the first few weeks, but even just how it felt a month later) and I was essentially chasing something I shouldn't have been chasing (but nobody could tell me that this was the case). Sure, it helped me work, but it was OVER working, which you don't want. I just didn't know that, because I didn't have a proper psychiatrist to speak to...and even when I did, I'm still mostly troubleshooting this on my own. So yeah. That's where we're at. Probably not going to be writing 8-10k words a day like I had been, but if we're really lucky, I can at least manage 1-2k for a caption, and maybe as I ease back into things and a proper regimen, I can work on more short stories but at a slower pace. Fingers crossed though.
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And once again, thank you thank you thank you all so much for still being here for me, when things have been so hard for me to work. Even if you were only here for a month, I appreciate all the support. I can't reasonably describe how frustrating this has all been, but not having to stress (too much) about my finances, because of the Patreon and Amazon ebook income, has helped immeasurably in keeping my sanity and not over-stressing and spiraling even further. So again, thank you all, seriously.