F/VoH Ch 117: Apologizing

Rosseline, seeing Ryan's nervousness, only smiled faintly and left the room, giving Ryan and the two women space to resolve their issues.

Ryan took a deep breath, trying to calm the pounding in his chest. With a suffocating sense of guilt, Ryan slowly knelt before Ellina and Charlotte. His sudden gesture made both women look surprised.

"I... I know I was wrong." Ryan's voice was soft yet firm, his eyes cast down deeply. "I know... I'm a bastard whose emotions have been suppressed, as if I've never felt anything... I realize that my behavior may have hurt you both. I understand if this feels unforgivable. I promised you both that I wanted to do this with you, but... in the end, I ended up doing it with another woman."

Ryan swallowed hard, forcing himself to continue, even as the weight on his chest grew heavier. "I'm not apologizing just for the sake of it... but I truly feel guilty." He clasped his hands tightly. "You both are the first women I loved, to whom I wanted to give my whole self. However, there is something within me... something I couldn't express all this time."

Ryan looked up slightly, gazing at Ellina and Charlotte with earnest eyes. "I want to feel my emotions again, without limits and without pressure. However, the only way to do that is through Cheonghee. Cheonghee asked me... the condition is that I must make Cheonghee pregnant. And in order to feel my emotions fully, I... I accepted that condition."

Silence enveloped the room, making time feel like it was slowing down. Ryan felt the weight of his words, but he continued in a soft tone, almost whispering, "I know this sounds ridiculous... But I want to be my true self with you, not just a figure who is overly controlled, quiet, and cold." Ryan bowed his head deeper, prostrating. "I beg you... forgive me."

Ryan's words echoed in the room, creating an atmosphere filled with emotion that hung between them. Ryan didn't know what would happen next, but for the first time, he had opened himself completely, allowing the two women he loved to see the vulnerable and regretful side of him.

Ellina sighed softly, looking at Ryan with an expression that was hard to interpret. "So... everything you did, all those sacrifices, was just to feel your emotions again... and to do that with us?" Ellina's voice sounded calmer, but there was a deep question implied in her inquiry.

Ryan lowered his head, still kneeling. "Yes... I did all this so I could feel the emotions that have long been buried within me. Now, when my emotions have finally returned, I want to express them... fully by doing that with both of you." Ryan's voice sounded hoarse but firm, as if reflecting the depth of feeling he experienced at that moment.

Charlotte and Ellina exchanged glances for a moment, then Charlotte stepped forward, speaking with a softness that was almost teasing. "We have never minded your emotions, Master. As long as you are willing to open up to us... we will be with you, bearing whatever happens. Even if it means accompanying you... by giving you as many offspring as you desire."

Ryan lifted his head, a small smile appearing on his lips, unable to resist making a joke. "I didn't expect... you to be so passionate, Charlotte."

Charlotte blushed and turned slightly, but her gentle gaze remained on Ryan. "That's... because Master started it first," Charlotte whispered shyly, though there was a spark of enthusiasm in her voice.

Ellina smiled faintly, then looked deeply into Ryan's eyes. "We don't care how cold your emotions are, Young Master Ryan... As long as you remain yourself, the person we love, then we will accept any side of you."