How I got into Orgasm Denial

When I grew up, my Dad wasn't your typical half Turkish dad. He was born in the UK, his Dad (my grandad) coming here when he was only little. So religious practices have never been imposed on me, and other than my nose, you wouldn't tell I had Turkish background. Anyway, he was strict in other ways, and was a very protective dad. He didn't really let me have boys round, so all my friends were girls. Still, I was popular with the boys at school.

When I grew up we didn't have much money, so we have one family computer in the living room, so exploring anything sexual wasn't easy (the handle of my hairbrush was my first boyfriend), but when I was fifteen by mom and dad got me a laptop for Christmas. They knew I loved writing, always have, and said as long as I make sure to use it for school work too, they were more than happy for me to have one. I also had to let me little sister use it for school work too....sigh.

This was the first time I ever had privacy when being online, but I never thought about porn etc. A few weeks later, I was feeling horny, and instead of the usual tried and tested method, I thought I would have a look at some 'naked people' online. Well, I wasn't really interested in what I saw. Everything seemed so strange but also so ugly at the time, and then I saw some adult comics, or, more specifically, hentai manga. The website probably gave my laptop a dozen viruses, but hey, live and learn.

I read a few of them over the next few weeks, but then one stuck out to me. It was called Secret Plot, a manga in which two sex obsessed teachers drain a few of their students balls. It was kind femdom to me back in those days, not so much now. In one of the volumes, the teacher refused to let the student cum, and the details on his innocent face filled with frustration got to me! I thought it was hot. I loved how much power this drawn woman had over the guy.

I remember waking up at 4am one day, a school night, so fucking horny. I loaded my laptop, and read it for the hundredth time, my fingers working their magic on me under the covers.

It didn't take long to start looking at actual orgasm denial porn. I remember there wasn't much, I think Taylors teases was the first one I saw, and Madeline is Wicked. Madeline seemed more real, more in control, more powerful that Taylor's but Taylors' was less about harsh femdom and more about the cockteasing.

I quickly found some stories online. One which I can't remember, but it was from an old website and part of a collection called Boys Clubhouse, about a teenage boy called Todd Mathews who helps pack the groceries of a MILF. She ends up edging him the entire car ride home. Honestly, it is the story that got me into writing my own stuff. I think it's lost to time now, but if anyone can find it, im sure my pussy would be very grateful!

I started to tease my boyfriend at the time. I didn't really know the terms for things, but I loved jerking him off over his shorts in public, stopping when he was about to cum. Sometimes I would make him cum in his underwear with what I know now is a 'ruined orgasm', but other times I would go back to his car with him, he would drive somewhere private and he would fuck the shit out of me. I also discovered I love blowjobs with him, too.

I then started finding more and more of these stories on the Orgasm Denial Forum story board, before coming across, what I think is the best free edging story out there; Amy the Nurses Aid.

Wow! Now that was hot! So much edging! So much denial! I began writing my own stories, my fantasies, how I would edge and deny my boyfriend for days on end. (I never did, we were 17 and together about 6 months lol).

Well...that's the start of my journey into this world of denial. Hope you liked it, darlings.