serious important stuff

I'm taking art lessons! In recent months, it's become very very obvious to me that I'm still lacking a lot of fundamentals with my art. It's really hard to draw even basic stuff still, because I've never properly learned good techniques other than just following my heart! But, as I've been following along with proper training, it's been making me think a lot about some other really obvious stuff.

I want to apologize, very very sincerely. I haven't been able to keep up at all with the honestly great suggestions and commissions yall have given me, and it's just awful that I've strung it along all this time. The fact that all of you are still here after so long is something I'm incredibly thankful for, and very guilty about. You're all honestly way more amazing than I deserve.

Finally taking the plunge to follow along with art lessons has been heavily motivated by the fact that I haven't been able to deliver to yall. I want to say it's because I can't draw well enough right now to properly fulfill what yall want from me. But in reality, I know it's more that being able to learn from my poor drawings is a lot easier to swallow when I'm not letting yall down. It's been sucking a lot of passion away from me, and it's also pretty obvious I've been uploading less and less as time goes on.

So! Going forward, the polls and commissions are going to be closed until some point in future. I'm going to save the current winners and requests, and do my best to fulfill them whenever I'm ready again. Until that point, soon I'll be restructuring this page and thinking up different ways of giving back to you wonderful people. For now, attached to this post is several drawings I've been scared to upload before, as they're simple or rough sketches from my lessons and generel learning before that. If yall want to see more of things like these, then I can try showing these to yall as a reward more often, although that's tbd since I would prefer to paywall as little as possible. Or, feel free to suggest some other bonuses, and we can figure out this new direction together!

At the end of it all, I want to make pretty art, and I want to share it with all of you. I started drawing because there wasn't enough HibiMiku. Now, the fandom is bigger than ever, but my want still hasn't changed. I just need to refind the passion for it. I hope to make it up to you all!