Persevering through Trauma
Added 2024-04-15 17:04:06 +0000 UTCI've shared this on both Discord and the YouTube community tab, but I know that we don't all have time, or desire, to keep up with all of the social media stuff (neither do I) so I wanted to share this here as well. This is not my usual, "New Video" or "Life Update" sort of post that I try to stick to on Patreon. It's much more personal and not very cheery. Don't feel obligated to read on = )
(Repost from YT Community Tab)
More than gaming, over the years, GamerPoets became a place where I've met/interacted with some of the best human beings in my life. Because of that, I occasionally share intimate and traumatic parts of my life with this community, not for pitty or praise of overcoming some of it but to hopefully let others know "they got this". Because you do got this :)
If you don't want to hear about something traumatic or potentially disturbing, don't read any further. I'll see you in the tutorials. :)
Some of you know that I was raped at 15 by an older dude. I didn't know that it was rape until a therapist helped me understand what happened to me 20 years later. Well... my brain recently decided to remember a 3 months span when I was 18. It was totally lost to memory until this past month. Friday, my therapist helped put the memories into perspective and validate my thoughts on it.... A woman, she was 37, sexually groomed me for 3 months (repeated rape, gifts, and confusion. I thought it was normal/my choice. It wasnt). She even nearly convinced me to leave my state with her due to being really good at mind games, at a time when I was young, confused, and in a bad place mentally and emotionally. I probably would have lost my life, had i gone. I had over a decade of emotional issues, among other things, because of this (and other traumatic events) . The story goes on...
I share this because I want to tell those who need to hear it... Life happens. It's not your fault. It's OK to seek help and talk about stuff. You got this :) You really do.
It is not easy or pleasant to share these things. It's highly uncomfortable and slightly terrifying... but some people need to know that they aren't alone and that they still have a chance to live their life. One foot in front of the other. Goodnight .
Comments
Thank you for sharing. People don't know unless people speak up about their trauma. (I should know, I was raised in the 60s by parent who told me "What happens at home stays at home," and just generally embraced the suck it up, don't talk about it, stoicism of the time. "It's over, your fine. Just shake it off." Yeah, right. Easier said than done. BTW, I'm sorry that I've not been around Gamerpoets on Discord in a long time. I generally just stopped sharing on social media, and for no good reason except just not feeling anyone would care. But, I think I need to change that. Thank you for the reminder, and I do care about you. You've always been kind to me when I've been on, and having been through my own, different, trauma (bullying and domestic abuse at various times in my life) I really appreciate that. Your honesty helps me grow.
Morgan J. Allgood
2024-04-21 20:41:21 +0000 UTCFuck man. Thank you for sharing this nightmare. It's crucial. You're the third rape victim that male. Radically under-reported and seldom taken seriously. My advise is get this shit out and then move on. Put it in the rear-view mirror. A friend of mine simply couldn't let go of the trauma and has spent year after year "getting things out" (on the advise of multiple PhD therapists) realistically dwelling on the trauma constantly and ruining an amazing man. Face it and let it go. I put my trauma in the review mirror long ago. I'm a happy camper now. God Bless My Friend - Paul
Paul Spence
2024-04-19 10:23:00 +0000 UTC
