GamerPoets & MichaelWontQuit

What's up with Me = )

Added 2019-04-24 18:23:51 +0000 UTC

Got off track helping Gina out with her mom (doctor said they didn't expect her to recover as well as she did) and helping around the house more. Got back into creating stuff but by that time I had thrown myself off routine, missed my meds for a little bit on top of it (my memory is horrible... if things aren't in "their place" i don't remember anything half the time) and they set me back a touch.

My OCD gets tough (when routine breaks and definitely when i get off track with the meds). If I eat something I obsess with the food. If I think something I obsess with the thought. If I do something I obsess with the task.. so on. Then when I start trying to realign myself I get angry/argumentative (with myself, not just others) and emotional/warn out. Trying to move on from one thing to the next feels like what I imagine trying to kick physical addictions would be like. With me it's OCD towards everything little thing I do/think. Makes it tough to focus on/do anything. I pretty much have to ask for help everytime this happens and get the extra kick in my butt from Gina (though I imagine it's hard for her as I am quite the task sometimes lol) to snap out of it and get on track.

Tonight I'm going for another walk in the woods. They help me sleep well. They are long walks (for me lol). Sleep schedule is the first major thing for me to get on track (on top of not missing my damn pills lol). I'm still out here folks = ) Sorry that things have been slow and that I haven't been very active in comments/discord and elsewhere again. Just me doing what I do = ) You know I like to keep you all updated. If I'm not getting content out at regular pace I like to at least stay in touch. I don't like not uploading a few times a week. Want you all to know it's not from lack of trying. It's not always easy to type these messages out = ) Might take a nap. Hope you are all doing well.