Slow Weekend
Added 2017-07-23 16:43:23 +0000 UTCSlow weekend. Saw a therapist Friday. Will continue for a while. Getting me back to "me". Content may be slow but learning to enjoy it again. Still working on everything that I said that I would plus more... just have to force myself to take full days off for a while, do things slowly and make sure that I really work on my health. I allowed myself to get to a really terrible place and I've taken/am taking the steps to not get to a point too difficult to return from. I hope you folks understand.
The new "RP" that I'm working on ( in between tutorials because I'm still trying to upload at least 1 worthwhile video each week to the best of my abilities) is more of a story narrative that indirectly tells my personal story in context with the character and game that I'm using. So anyone who really wants to understand the full extent of my issues will hear them in a fun and hopefully engaging way utilizing a game that I never thought I'd play.
Anyways = ) I need to go mow my lawn. My agoraphobia has gotten out of control and its a jungle outside due to how difficult it's been just walking beyond my front door recently (stepping outside is like trying to jump into an ice cold pool of water... that feeling you get when you want to go in but feel the cold before it even touches you... I get that feeling in a very intense way for 100's of basic every day crap that my logic can't always over come). Need some sun and home grooming accomplishments. Happy to have your support folks. Life is good = ) Going to start living it again.... and tomorrow.. back to work on things.
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One step at a time brother. I know exactly where you're coming from and hope you and your therapist meet eye to eye, it makes a huge difference... Thank you for your honesty. Good luck on your lawn quest, - at least it's not your face that hasn't been mowed for a while... Jumanji and "WHAT YEAR IS IT" memes are coming to my mind... :) Take care!
Bhaeron
2017-07-24 08:54:13 +0000 UTCI'm glad to hear you fighting back so steadily, phobias really suck balls (xcuze me french), and tbh I despise lawn mowing, I even considered getting a couple of sheep, I'm dead serious! There's even a race of sheep that doesn't need shaving. Ahem, that's enough talk about sheep. Getting weird I know.. Of course for your front lawn sheep would be weird I know, I meant for the back yard.. Honestly, stopping the sheep talk now. YouTube is a funny place, but I'm glad to have 'met' you!
Elim Rawne
2017-07-23 22:56:20 +0000 UTC
