AC#22

Now to the subject of Authenticity with a capital A.

Obviously this is not  a new topic here, but it is THE topic here and always has been the basis of what I can refer to as a social experiment.

Whilst I was IN the experiment it was hard to objectify myself and the experiment and see the wood for the trees.

I cannot say whether it is a process of awakening that is making it clearer to me now or just time itself.

Addressing the censorship and repression of nudity amongst our capitalist cultures became a natural part of the conversation and exploration.

Why that triggered me again and again so many times over was only revealed to me when my spiritual teacher and master GP, said to me

"Of course that would be a hard job. You are receiving the projections  of everyone else's guilt and shame around their own body issues and sexulaity, years and years of conditioning projected onto you. Why would you want to do that job?" he said "you don't need to put yourself through that"

And it was such a relief to hear that because it has honestly at times not been rewarding enough to continue. To have the external projection of those who have never even tuned in and paid for my uncensored AC Vlogs, projecting that I am not "owning who i am" said one woman.

"who am I?" I said

YES I "use" sexuality in my publicity, free and naked pictures of the natural body which is at times beautiful and sensual but also just our vehicle for getting around, as I have learned from the publicity foisted upon us every where we go, on and offline. I could use more boring pictures of me in a jumper but i also make a living from my challenge and I know a picture of my cat, as cute as he is probably would not put bums on seats 9as we say in the theatre) as my naked body will. And this post is directed at my patrons who haven't yet checked out my latest AC Vlogs in the ¢25 tier, incase you wanted to upgrade and check them out.

But outside of that gentle "tease" I am just being myself.

And myself is sexual is sensual, as are you, as are we all. Even those that are repressed or oppressed or in denial of their sexuality, or conditioned to cover it up. It is there, we are sexual BE-ings.

Something is alive in me that is waking up my authenticity challenge, where I feel I must get over my traumas and triggers in order to stay true to the original intention and what becamse my message.

To accept all sides of ourselves in public, and that includes my and our sexual and sensual self.

with love and truth

Suze