And I'm feeling goooood!
Added 2019-06-02 09:59:43 +0000 UTCI have been in Malta for the Earth Garden festival, I was giving workshops all day Friday in the arts hub and it went super well and it felt great. The sun was out and I far prefer working at a festival than just hanging out, so many of my friends were there, it was great.
Saturday was kind of weird. My boyfriend has been distant. We've only been together for a month but he is stressed with his job and wondering what to do with his career. It's kind of existential life crisis, and I am trying not to take it personally. There's a part of me that wants to believe that my presence can lift him up and make everything ok, but it's not like that, and my advice doesn't seem to be helping.
So we had a long sharing, where he told me that he's not super in love with me, but he's attracted to me and doesn't want to break up. I don't know if it's enough, my confidence feels a bit like it needs a boost. But yesterday I worked with a shamn at the festival with rappé and cacoa, and I was feeling great at the end of the day, so was my boyfriend and so had lots and lots of sex. It's not that that should heal everything and make everything ok, but to have that body to body connection felt really good. There's a sneaking suspicion that I can't ignore that niggling voice that whispers, "he's not that into you" I don't want to believe it because we've had some amazing moments...but time will tell.
Time to just dance to wake myself up!
Suze ;-)
