Sssoap Drop (Hi Res + Extra Thoughts)

 This is the hi res size! Thank you for your generous support~

A painting for HutchenceD on Twitter! Self-quarantine revealed that Jeremy's shower is smaller than he remembered. The gym's is so much roomier... Aw, ssssshoot.

I'm incredibly happy I got to work with Jeremy again. Years ago, I did a piece of Jeremy for Hutch when I was trying to learn Photoshop, and... Okay, I tried really, really hard, but whoof... It, uh, didn't age the -best-. So getting to come back and try again is humbling after having been away for-- oh my god, has it really been 7 years!? Oh no. im old now arent i ; ; (I'm going to attach the old one to the post, for those here on Patreon who may not have seen it in my gallery...!)

Anyways, jokes aside, thank you so much for letting me work with one of your fantastic men again! Always my pleasure, man. Thank you for being a good friend.

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Gosh, this one landed at such a strange time. I was super excited when I started this piece, but about midway through, weird news landed in my lap that sent me on a bit of a depression spiral for a bit. Turns out a friend that stopped talking to me years ago views my stuff as "pornographic" and didn't want to associate with me because of it? So you can imagine how loading up a shower scene, clean as it is (no pun intended), with that in mind probably felt.

It made me question a lot of stuff for a few days. Husband can attest to those few breakdowns I had. Questions like "What am I doing with my life?", "Do I cut ties with my muscle/masculine art entirely?", "Is this actually impacting me again, or is it another coincidence?", and "Why can't I make a damn decision on what I want to do?" That last one especially hurt, because of the first three. For years, I wanted to be a concept artist in games or movies. Unfortunately, both of those industries have bugbears... Games WAY more than movies... that have sort of killed those dreams. But there's still a large part of me aiming for that peak of quality.

But around the third day after a fantastic talking with Traediras (whose 3D art you should seriously check out on Twitter, here's a link: https://twitter.com/traediras ), it sort of dawned on me -- I'm almost 30. I've been deliberating if I like doing this sort of art, or artistic nudity, or any of that sort of stuff at all, for at -least- 5 years. And I still haven't decided. I need to make a decision, so I am.

I'm LGBT. That's not really a hidden fact -- I mean, just look at him. You can tell I like anatomy, for example. So rather than hide it away and make "art for artists", I'm gonna make art for me. And if that's a big man in a small shower, then dangit, I'm going to paint it as best I can.

Ramble aside, I'm learning as well that artists I aspire to are putting tens upon tens of hours. I definitely need to build up my hand strength again so I can do something similar. We'll see how that goes, aha. I've talked enough though -- please, enjoy!! And thank you yet again for your support. <3